It´s my birthday today and I hate it

[TheGoodGuy]

So please no "happy birthday" there is nothing to be happy about or celebrate,I turned 26 today on the 18th of April I wanna be a child again so bad yet now I am closer to my 30th than my teenage years.

 

[s1mplem3]

Sad Birthday! I agree with you, being a child much better than adult. If I knew 100% there is afterlife I'd kill myself to be a baby again.

 

[DoNotLet2]

Do you want a hug or a tactical silence?

 

[Vault of Memories]

I turned 27 today and my birthday is my least favorite day of the year. I know people mean well when they say happy birthday, but I've dreaded every year since around 13/14. I've never met anyone else who felt the same way as me about this, so it's refreshing. I never planned on seeing 18 and the idea that 30 is three years away scares me. I feel ancient now and I miss being a kid. I wish I never had to grow up, because my early childhood was the only time I was actually content with life. The only time I was genuinely happy with my life.

 

[Oyoy]

I would hate to be a child today. There are none left. Babies are up shit Creek.

 

[Epsilon0]

I feel like a sociopath when someone says it's their birthday and I don't wish them Happy Birthday.

But I respect your wishes, because not everything is about me, although I just made your birthday about me.

Oh... I'd better stop writing now.

 

[RileyTanaka]

I understand. Birthdays are tough because you're forced to evaluate your time on this earth and that can be soul crushing, depending on your circumstances. I absolutely loathe my birthday too. It feels like it's just another anniversary of nonstop pain and suffering, and absolutely nothing to show for it.

 

[qwerty32]

I thought I was the only person who didn't like celebrating my birthday. I usually deactivate my social medias to avoid the happy birthday postings when I know only a few people who I trust know my real birthday and I put down a fake birth date on my social medias. But when a friend or family celebrates their birthday, I celebrate with them.
Probably because I want to remain low-key and not be treated nicely by everyone for that just one day and then be treated normally for the rest of the other days.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Sad Birthday! I agree with you, being a child much better than adult. If I knew 100% there is afterlife I'd kill myself to be a baby again.

Yeah I know death most likely mean I will seize to exist but I desperately hope I will wake up as a child again.

I turned 27 today and my birthday is my least favorite day of the year. I know people mean well when they say happy birthday, but I've dreaded every year since around 13/14. I've never met anyone else who felt the same way as me about this, so it's refreshing. I never planned on seeing 18 and the idea that 30 is three years away scares me. I feel ancient now and I miss being a kid. I wish I never had to grow up, because my early childhood was the only time I was actually content with life. The only time I was genuinely happy with my life.

Yeah Since I was 15 I always said to my closest Goth friends I would never turn 20 years old now I am 26 where the hell has the time gone!??

I understand. Birthdays are tough because you're forced to evaluate your time on this earth and that can be soul crushing, depending on your circumstances. I absolutely loathe my birthday too. It feels like it's just another anniversary of nonstop pain and suffering, and absolutely nothing to show for it.

Exactly! What am I celebrating and why are people telling me happy birthday when my happiness ended over a decade ago I want to be a child back then birthdays were amazing now it just means I am 1 year further away from those happy years.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry this day is hard for you. I hope you find at least one thing enjoyable today.

 

[disabledandhopeless]

I know how you feel. People expect you to act like an adult once you're an adult in terms of age. They just look at the number.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'm sorry this day is hard for you. I hope you find at least one thing enjoyable today.

Getting drunk so to forget about this horrible day.

I know how you feel. People expect you to act like an adult once you're an adult in terms of age. They just look at the number.

Exactly, I don´t feel like an adult at all but people expect me to and I hate it.

 

[Deathbydemo]

I'm sorry your birthday brings so many negative feelings but I still hope at least one thing makes you smile today.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Exactly, I don´t feel like an adult at all but people expect me to and I hate it.

Im way older then you, and i still feel that way.

I hope you have a bare able day.

 

[waterbottleman]

I turn 30 this year although it's way later in the year.

I don't want to be 30.

I guess the only comfort I take is that I look way younger than my actual age. People mistake me for being in my late teens/early twenties. It's really confusing because a ton of people who are younger than me look older than me and people my age/slightly older look way older than I do.

It's a strange age to be alive. I'm still young but I'm also old enough to be able to see past the horizon and realize that my youth won't last forever.

 

[InterstateFlowers]

Oof. You're not alone.

Literally had to skip school for several days on my birthday because I had a panic attack that lasted too long. I don't think I'll ever understand how some suicidal people can manage life to their 30's, 40's, 50's, etc. I refuse to live any longer than 30. The older I get, the more scared I am. I'm afraid of the responsibility of being a full-fledged adult and doing it all wrong wrong. Thank god I'm still in school, not literally- doing online, because I realize that the routine is life-saving. Having grades to care about gives me motivation to be as good as I can be.

And if I'm a working adult? What then? I don't have job grades designed to tell me how good I'm doing or how much better I am than some other person. I just have to go to some job where I'll be never be appreciated for anything and the shit I see on twitter and the news just amplifies my belief on that.

 

[The Dark Chaos]

I love celebrating other people's birthdays and making them feel special, but I dislike my birthday (hate is a strong word, so I rescind that kind of language, but am too lazy to re-edit this paragraph) . I hate people asking me what I want for my birthday. Or what we/I are doing for my birthday. I hate the idea of having to plan a party for myself, or make a reservation, or coordinate different groups of friends. But then I hate making one of my friends do it because that makes me uncomfortable. I hate everyone staring at me asking, "Are you having fun?" on repeat. My heart sinks through the bottom of the chair when people start singing at me.
I totally get youu mann!!

 

[itsamadworld]

I would hate to be a child today. There are none left. Babies are up shit Creek.

I totally agree...It was bad when i was young. It's interesting, the schools were modeled after an old Prussian Prison System.....It doesn't surprise me all the school shootings throughout the years. (not agreeing with mass murderers) I am just saying, I can see how someone could get too that dark place! Interesting with this Covid- I think more young people are surviving now that the schools have shut down....But then again my brother in WA tested positive for covid 19- he told me yesterday by text....I don't live near him...so...yeah...he has two children. I guess they'll be tested too...but I guess life is just random....I always wanted to go first....I'm a little jealous of my brother if he goes before me...

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Oof. You're not alone.

Literally had to skip school for several days on my birthday because I had a panic attack that lasted too long. I don't think I'll ever understand how some suicidal people can manage life to their 30's, 40's, 50's, etc. I refuse to live any longer than 30. The older I get, the more scared I am. I'm afraid of the responsibility of being a full-fledged adult and doing it all wrong wrong. Thank god I'm still in school, not literally- doing online, because I realize that the routine is life-saving. Having grades to care about gives me motivation to be as good as I can be.

And if I'm a working adult? What then? I don't have job grades designed to tell me how good I'm doing or how much better I am than some other person. I just have to go to some job where I'll be never be appreciated for anything and the shit I see on twitter and the news just amplifies my belief on that.

Yeah no way I will turn 30 I already feel like an old man, and I get the "The older I get, the more scared I am. I'm afraid of the responsibility of being a full-fledged adult" So many people I know from my childhood and teenage years (my youth) have children now there are dozens of people I used to know that have children now so it´s not just one, I started being scared of this when I was 18 when a person I used to be friends with had her first child and even back then I felt like holy fuck I am getting old and it scared the shit out of me and now dozens of people I know have children, educations, jobs while I sit alone in my apartment with no friends, no education or job.

I also don´t want a job, I went down with depression when I was 18 after working only 1½ month as an apprentice in a butchers shop and only after the first 1-2 weeks I realized I will have to work 10 hours 5 days a week for the rest of my life and I couldn´t handle it and I still can´t, I really don´t want to work because there is nothing I am passionate about why would I or anyone else for that matter want to spend the majority of their life working doing something they don´t like at least back in school you had a ton of holidays and vacations as an adult you only have 2 days off a week and a couple weeks a year of vacation even if I was completely healthy I would rather die than wageslave my entire life. I don´t get why people can get up every morning for years doing the same boring job without wanting to kill themselves.

I really wish I had killed myself when I was 18-19 like a throughly planned but I stupidly decided to give life a chance and that has only resulted in me suffering for 7-8 years while my existence only got worse with my physical and mental health getting worse by each passing year and I have lost all my friends, I have no hobbies I don´t even like video games anymore. FUCK how I regret not killing myself back then.

I love celebrating other people's birthdays and making them feel special, but I dislike my birthday (hate is a strong word, so I rescind that kind of language, but am too lazy to re-edit this paragraph) . I hate people asking me what I want for my birthday. Or what we/I are doing for my birthday. I hate the idea of having to plan a party for myself, or make a reservation, or coordinate different groups of friends. But then I hate making one of my friends do it because that makes me uncomfortable. I hate everyone staring at me asking, "Are you having fun?" on repeat. My heart sinks through the bottom of the chair when people start singing at me.
I totally get youu mann!!

I hate the whole social convention of birthdays like I am obligated to wish my family members a happy birthday because I don´t believe in it so I hate it, I don´t think it´s worth celebrating my siblings or parents birthday because now they are a year older and that is depressing I want to go back to being a child, back when me and my siblings looked young and I was happy and back when my parents didn´t look old and was healthy.

But I have to say "happy birthday" to my family otherwise they will think I am rude when in reality I am the exact opposite I am not insulting them by reminding them how old they have become but other people don´t see it like this, and it´s the same on Facebook with a few people wishing me a happy birthday and I have to fake thank them and like their post even though what I really want is to tell them everything I have said here.

Ironically it´s also depressing to see how few people wishes me a happy birthday on Facebook that is a testament to how many friends I have lost each year, 10 years ago dozens of people would wish me a happy birthday this year it was only 8 and five of them was family and one was my brother´s girlfriend so that really doesn´t count, I have no friends anymore and no life.

I would hate to be a child today. There are none left. Babies are up shit Creek.

Me too they grow up too fast back when I was a child we dressed as children and I had patched on all my pants and some shirts because I would be ripping holes in them while playing outside now children younger than 10 are dressed like adults with fancy clothes and stylish hair I even remember seeing a girl who was like 6 years old taking a selfie.

Also in my country we barely get any snow anymore, this year for the first time in my life we actually got none it was like we totally skipped winter and I was looking forward to a beautiful snow covered landscape but instead I got nothing.

There are also too much technology today so children don´t really play I believe people born in the 90´s maybe even early 00´s was the last generation to experience a perfect childhood because technology was perfectly balanced so we would play with sticks, build forts outside in the woods, rip our clothes for playing outside but also play video games and social media back then only consisted of sites like myspace, vampire freaks, Arto (danish forum) and you could customize your own profile now social media has gotten completely out of hand I am so glad I got to experience the last good childhood. And as I said even the climate was different with heavy winters that was so much fun as a child children in Denmark won´t experience that since we get no snow.

 

[Montmorency_1]

All I have to say is hate my birthday too. It reminds me I've wasted another year