It only gets worse from here

[thinkkank]

Things are pretty bad and they will only get worse. To many things have gone wrong and I can't fix it. My only way out is ending things. I desperately wanted things to be different, but there is only one future for me, one where things get worse and worse and I end up drinking SN. My emotions are all over the place. I'm angry, scared and once in a while at peace with my fate. I wish it didn't have to be this way, but it is
I truly feel helpless. I wanted a good life and I worked for it, but I got this shit hand dealt to me, now I'm in this hole. Part of me resents people who have good lives, jobs, families with a good future ahead of them.

 

[Huntfish34]

I'm sorry you are feeling that way,. I also feel oddly similar in my life.

I reckon it doesn't matter much... But what things have gone so wrong that you can't fix. ? Just curious because I understand the mindset in numerous ways.

 

[Flying Away]

I'm also at peace with my decision. Once you make up your mind seems things become clear. Good luck

 

[demuic]

I feel the same way. There's only one way out for me. Even if I wanted to see the future, I can't make it through the present.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I also wish to see what the future holds of surprises but not on personal level. Unfortunately there is no other way for me but to exit

 

[thinkkank]

I also wish to see what the future holds of surprises but not on personal level. Unfortunately there is no other way for me but to exit

I'm almost curious enough to stick around and see how bad it gets. I know it'll be a shit show, but I am tempted to see the show. I've always wanted to save enough money to buy a gun and bullets and keep them with me. When it gets too much to handle that's when I check out.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I'm almost curious enough to stick around and see how bad it gets. I know it'll be a shit show, but I am tempted to see the show. I've always wanted to save enough money to buy a gun and bullets and keep them with me. When it gets too much to handle that's when I check out.

I have my N for that

 

[thinkkank]

if fate is real then some people are meant to kill themselves. it's decided before they are born. I don't know if knowing that while you're alive brings peace or resentment. if fate is real then I can accept the fact that things were going to end up this way and there is little I can do to change it. I can enjoy a few things while I move closer to the day that I drink SN. on the other hand it sucks that this is my fate, I had no say in it

 

[eternalmelancholy]

if fate is real then some people are meant to kill themselves. it's decided before they are born. I don't know if knowing that while you're alive brings peace or resentment. if fate is real then I can accept the fact that things were going to end up this way and there is little I can do to change it. I can enjoy a few things while I move closer to the day that I drink SN. on the other hand it sucks that this is my fate, I had no say in it

Your parents mostly decide how your life will turn out. Be born to kind, wealthy and genetically healthy parents then you will most likely have a good life. Be born to spiteful, uneducated, poor and mentally ill parents then your life is going to fucking suck.

 

[Bot]

i feel the same way and like not being able to change anything, it's cruel, i hope things become better for us...

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine it must be painful, wanting to live and yet being unable to. Life is just so unfair, many of us are disadvantaged through no fault of our own. Things will also get worse for me in the future and it is such an awful dreadful feeling. There is no limit as to how bad things can get either and I know I need to ctb to escape from it all. I wish you the best.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I personally tend to believe that all outcomes were already decided at the beginning of the universe. From what source would new alternative outcomes be able to emerge? Everything that happens must be accounted for according to prior states.