SuicideByBelt
Student
- Sep 18, 2019
- 142
I get all my materials together, but before doing it, I always wuss out of it. I don't have the courage to go ahead with it.
gothfairy
sad girl
- Nov 12, 2019
- 64
i feel you. i dont even have the courage to order SN. maybe its because i dont have the other materials. but still, its just SI kicking in. you'll get there
and of course maybe it means this isnt the correct route for you but you will figure it out <3
and of course maybe it means this isnt the correct route for you but you will figure it out <3
Yes been trying everyday for a week to night night
MeltingHeart
Visionary
- Sep 9, 2019
- 2,151
It's just an inbuilt human mechanism - it of course hard to override- especially if it isn't done impulsively in that way and of course it might not be the right time for you, if at all, maybe there are other factors holding you to life for now.
It's so frustrating and difficult. I have SN and could do it now. I really want to. But I don't know what's holding me back.
SpecialK
Student
- Apr 15, 2019
- 155
SN is becoming a rarity. Perhaps it would be a good idea to get it and just keep in stock. Just in case.
SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
Incorrect. Please dont spread rumours unless you can back them up. SN is still very easy to get in most countries.
Astral316
Specialist
- Aug 26, 2019
- 332
I don't have the courage to live several decades of a meaningless, isolated existence. There's no easy path for me... it's a matter of choosing the lesser of two evils. When the time comes for me to drink the SN I'll be doing just that.
SpecialK
Student
- Apr 15, 2019
- 155
Amazon Canada stopped selling it, sellers aren't authorized anymore to sell SN on that platform/ship to Canada. :/
SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
That is one supplier in one country which does not make it difficult to get elsewhere or rare.
MeltingHeart
Visionary
- Sep 9, 2019
- 2,151
People or things you maybe still want to do in life - maybe even a little hope somewhere- even if it that in some way feels over shadowed by the negatives aspects at the moment. Atleast you have got the future just in case, but doesn't mean you have to use it now- just because you have it- doesn't mean you have to use if ever if you decide to give things another go. But maybe it can just be seen as a kind of 'back up (out?) plan if things don't improve.
Meant2Die
Specialist
- Nov 8, 2019
- 307
I here you and what you are saying. My original method was hanging and when I practice and try to find the carotid artery without success, instead producing a lot of pain, that's when the SN method seems a lot more doable.
Perhaps the method you've chosen isn't peaceful enough ?
Have you considered the SN option ?
Various people have been using that option lately, and it seems to have been a fairly good method.....
Have you considered the SN option ?
Various people have been using that option lately, and it seems to have been a fairly good method.....
SuicideByBelt
Student
- Sep 18, 2019
- 142
The thought of leaving family behind keeps stopping me they know of one attempt and were devastated but I keep getting the urge due to my tinnitus
MeltingHeart
Visionary
- Sep 9, 2019
- 2,151
I have heard other with the same disorder on here! It must be such an awful affliction- are there literally no treatment options to even ease it slightly? Sorry if that is to obvious a thing to say!
MeltingHeart
Visionary
- Sep 9, 2019
- 2,151
What the hell who declined it? (Without specific stockist/ website details) did they say why?
EndItQuickly
Member
- Oct 30, 2019
- 88
It's pretty surreal holding the bottle of poison you will end your life with
Kotochan
Student
- Jul 17, 2019
- 143
I couldn't hang myself - it's just so fucking hard. I came close once but not quite far enough and now i have an intense distaste for the idea of hanging.
That's why im looking into getting fent. I know I will be able to inject!
That's why im looking into getting fent. I know I will be able to inject!
It's always a struggle. I'm trying to decide if I want to order and go ahead - I'm sick of crying and being alone and being an afterthought...
I think ultimately, it can be a terrifying decision to make. For me, I'm just wondering if I can pull it off.. and leave all the hurt and isolation behind..
FTL.Wanderer
Enlightened
- May 31, 2018
- 1,782
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,815
Yes, what you said is indeed true. This is because your body's innate, biological instinct kicks in, which is the survival instinct (SI - for abbreviation) and it's one of the things that keeps a human being alive for millions of years (or really any living organism). It's really difficult to do so without the aid of calming techniques (meditation, a way to calming the mind and body), alcohol and/or drugs. I don't recommend drinking too much though as that may impair your motor function, causing you to be more likely to fail whatever method you are looking for, especially ones that require many steps and careful preparation to be successful.
Sweet emotion
Enlightened
- Sep 14, 2019
- 1,325
It most certainly is. I think that most of us don't actually want to die, we just want the pain to stop. Whether physical or mental, we just want to stop feeling what we are feeling. I passed my death date already. I have to plan my death three days in advance so that is why I'm so afraid. I know that I'll have three days to sit and listen to the clock go tick tock. I'll be could ting down the hours and minutes until my death. I don't know how I'm going to get the courage to do that. Anyone who says that suicide is a cowards way out and that it's easy has no idea what they're talking about. The nerve it takes to end your own life is immense and you need a lot of balls to do that.
angie
need to exit
- May 25, 2018
- 480
if it could be an instantaneous thing it would be easier i'm sure . instead of having to time eating, then time in between, then time anti emetics then .time before u take the stuff it's hardly impulsive !!! i'd be able to just take the 2bottles N and drink them if that was all that was required but it's not . therefore you have all this time prior to allow the SI to get to you . my SI kicks in as soon as i think about the regime needed . otherwise i'd be gone asap
I'm sure a lot of us are the same
I agree. I don't want to commit suicide but I do want to die. Therefore, I wait patiently for my natural death. Hopefully it won't be too long.
Give me fentanyl and I will snort it in a heartbeat but I can't hang myself or jump
I suspect most of us don't actually want to die. That's what holds us back. But we don't want to live either.
True I wish I could just drop dead
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