Help It feels like there is a war going on in my head

[noaccount]

between whether I am actually being hurt or whether I am just being paranoid and cruel

 

[Bagger]

I'm observing same pointless battle inside my head too, i just don't know anymore which side is right, and which wrong. Maybe it's all my delusion, and there is no battle. But the collateral damage from it is very real. I just want to disappear without a trace, even temporarily, just enough to cut the gas and extinguish this mental fire.

 

[timf]

Usually one's mental processing capacity is occupied with various tasks, If for any one of a number of reasons one's mind has an abundance of unallocated time, one might place excessive processing on a subject that distorts things with an intensity of focus.

One way to test if one is experiencing a distortion as a result of excessive focus is to add additional tasks that would reduce the mental resources and the time allocated to such processing. Sometimes this is done with work. However, it can also be done with entertainment. or amusement. The etymology of amusement is interesting in this regard as it originally meant "without thinking".