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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,789
Peace & contentment are just forms of pleasure too. We're only capable of experiencing pain or pleasure, that's all there is for animals
Not mind kind of peace and contentment at least. It's not pleasurable, but it's the absence of the usual garbage. Maybe my choice of words was wrong, perhaps "relief" is a better word, idk.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Not mind kind of peace and contentment at least. It's not pleasurable, but it's the absence of the usual garbage. Maybe my choice of words was wrong, perhaps "relief" is a better word, idk.
Well, relief/absence of garbage is poor man's pleasure...
 
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BottomlessPit

BottomlessPit

Staring at the edge
Apr 28, 2021
423
It's scary as shit that so many people on here have been unable to enjoy anything for years, yet they still can't overcome their SI :mmm:
The miracle of life. It's the carrot and the stick which make us move, but the carrot is kind of redundant. The stick alone can get us to toil endlessly in an existence that is completely devoid of anything positive. Blame our survival instinct for keeping us imprisoned..
 
Makko

Makko

Iä!
Jan 17, 2021
2,430
Even a man who has nothing can still have comfy.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Even a man who has nothing can still have comfy.
What will be my comfy when my dick falls off? I can't become a bottom, I get retraumatized each time I wipe my butt
 
Pisceslilith

Pisceslilith

Student
Aug 19, 2019
159
Maybe not completely but I'm almost 100% there. The only thing I somewhat enjoy is music, which is a bad sign cause I can feel myself slowly losing interest until I find a new song but it's an ongoing cycle. I hate it here so much and I can't remember the last time I've been genuinely happy. Same shit different day. Even eating and sleeping feels like a chore. Non existence is so much easier, I'm so angry I was put here against my will. People should really be able to consent to their birth.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
You will have to turn to nonsexual comfy. Then again, for you that door may have closed forever.
The miracle of life. It's the carrot and the stick which make us move, but the carrot is kind of redundant. The stick alone can get us to toil endlessly
I still believe I'll be defiant & spiteful enough to stick it to the stick when all the dick-shaped carrots are gone
 
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slyna

Student
Jul 30, 2021
154
Not just enjoy but my energy is gone and with isolation I notice my mental health is detoriating quickly. I feel stupid
Maybe not completely but I'm almost 100% there. The only thing I somewhat enjoy is music, which is a bad sign cause I can feel myself slowly losing interest until I find a new song but it's an ongoing cycle. I hate it here so much and I can't remember the last time I've been genuinely happy. Same shit different day. Even eating and sleeping feels like a chore. Non existence is so much easier, I'm so angry I was put here against my will. People should really be able to consent to their birth.
No, it's just that parents should be shown for what they really are. Evil people
 
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Addi_Madd

Member
Sep 12, 2020
57
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Yes. The only thing I enjoy doing is eating, as I am bulimic and genuinely addicted to food. It makes my life hell, but it's the only thing that brings me joy at the same time and I would have been dead long ago if I didn't have this addiction.
I'm bulimic too and binging and purging is one of the only "pastimes" I can focus on and summon the energy and motivation to do. I've been trying to substitute chewing and spitting but it's not as satisfying. I like the feeling of relief of emptying my too-full stomach and the discomfort of vomiting.
 
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Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
I never feel more embarrassed than when someone asks what my hobbies are. The inability to respond is an admission of how miserable I truly am.
 
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Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
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I'm bulimic too and binging and purging is one of the only "pastimes" I can focus on and summon the energy and motivation to do. I've been trying to substitute chewing and spitting but it's not as satisfying. I like the feeling of relief of emptying my too-full stomach and the discomfort of vomiting.
I've tried chewing and spitting as well, but one of the biggest reasons that led me to start binging and purging on the first place was the hunger, and the feeling of being able to eat whatever I want at least for a short span of time, the euphoria of it. And then feeling like I fixed something when I purge. It comes as the biggest relief ever for me. I feel bad because binge eating is not talked about enough and seen as something shameful, because you can't romanticize it like you do with restricting or fasting. But it's so so painful and an addiction.
 
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cooldude420

Student
Aug 8, 2021
110
It's scary as shit that so many people on here have been unable to enjoy anything for years, yet they still can't overcome their SI :mmm:
i did once. but..... family member jus happpenned to knok on door. komplete coincidence
fleeting moments of good my in life
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
i did once. but..... family member jus happpenned to knok on door. komplete coincidence
fleeting moments of good my in life
I'm confused - are you talking about overcumming SI or getting caught jacking off?
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
Yeah pretty much
 
Rhaiyne

Rhaiyne

"To be - or not to be.... That is the question"
Jul 4, 2021
107
Weird thing for me... music... no matter how low I am... music will always be there...
 
Depressed_Kettle

Depressed_Kettle

Experienced
Apr 25, 2021
253
Part of depression is not being able to enjoy anything. I struggle to find enjoyment in anything because I can't relax enough. I'm to uptight and I can't focus on what's happening. It's like it's a haze, while I'm doing something, all I can think about is things that stress me out (how bad I look, if I smell, if I am acting weird, if I said something wrong, if my body movements are weird). I struggle to find words to say when people ask me questions. I don't find things pleasurable anymore because I can't relax and take it all in. I have ADHD too so that's part of it. Lately my meds have seemed weird, I'm not sure what's going on but it's probably just me. I feel like I'm going crazy, overthinking everything and just can't wait until it's over.
 
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plough22

plough22

Living but not really, just surviving
May 1, 2020
226
I still enjoy some things, the ones that allow me to escape my mind. Other than that, No I don't enjoy this life. I use to but five years my life changed and it hasn't been the same. Trying to find answers in my head, over thinking, feeling worthless and helpless and I am getting more tired. I'd love N, peace would then slip in
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
I think the only thing I actually enjoy is the volunteering I'm doing and a big part of that is it keeps me occupied gives me a sense of accomplishment for a few hours. Being around people I like with some talking It makes me feel like I'm actually part of the world not a ghost walking through it. I cant really say this and why I want to volunteer everyday and to why I'm not happy to lose time\days. Other than that there's nothing I really enjoy anymore
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,493
I can't say I don't enjoy anything, just that whatever happiness something brings is very short lived.
 
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Stuckaf2

Stuck
Aug 17, 2021
44
Yes it's just mind boggling. Nothing makes me happy no matter how good I feel. When I realized that I was just trying to cope with me being such a retarded human my world fell apart... it's was just doomed from day 1
 
DunnoWhyButYeah

DunnoWhyButYeah

~*-*~
Apr 3, 2020
399
Hmm almost. I still enjoy some good conversations and sex, sometimes even gaming but everything else... No point.
 

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