Venting Is this normal?

[oooobeeeeii]

I feel like I still do have some will to live, I mean, to have a future, but lately I am getting more and more tired of life, and turn to xanax and drinking rather than trying other things that used to be good coping mechanism. Idk, am I just an ungrateful brat? Like, I feel like such a bad person.

 

[sunshiningbackwards]

Might mean CTB is not for you. Which is okay

 

[orca87]

I feel like I still do have some will to live, I mean, to have a future, but lately I am getting more and more tired of life, and turn to xanax and drinking rather than trying other things that used to be good coping mechanism. Idk, am I just an ungrateful brat? Like, I feel like such a bad person.

Don't feel like a bad person for not enjoying life! Its not a blame game

If you think about your future: how will it look like? How will you feel?

 

[oooobeeeeii]

Might mean CTB is not for you. Which is okay

But living like this is agonizing..

 

[Kundalini Guy]

You need to wait till are ready once again. It was the same for me, I wanted to CTB so badly at the end of last year but ended not doing it. I regained my will to live over the past months but am waiting once again when I feel like doing it because I know I will fail if I do it now.

 

[orca87]

You need to wait till are ready once again. It was the same for me, I wanted to CTB so badly at the end of last year but ended not doing it. I regained my will to live over the past months but am waiting once again when I feel like doing it because I know I will fail if I do it now.

That's so true! If there is any doubt, don't ctb. It is one way. And an attempt in doubt will most likely fail and bears the risk of permanent damage.

 

[oooobeeeeii]

That's so true! If there is any doubt, don't ctb. It is one way. And an attempt in doubt will most likely fail and bears the risk of permanent damage.

Nah, if I do it ill make sure it doesnt fail. But its true that if I have doubt I should wait.

 

[leavingsoon99]

That's not unusual to feel like that. Above all else, get clarity with your life. CTB may not be for you. It's not for everyone. And that's quite okay.