Venting is there something wrong with me?

[Verklempt]

I used to be so good at hiding my tears and how I felt. But, I've been crying every minute, the pain is still there even though I tried to distract myself. I want all of this to end, I'm so tired. I want to talk to someone and get help. But, another side of me don't want to get help since I feel so hopeless. My eye is so puffy from crying too much.
I was supposed to end my life today but, I don't have the energy to do it.

 

[Flippy]

I don't think there is anything 'wrong' with you. Pain, whatever it's type, physical or emotional is very exhausting. It gets hard to hide sometimes and tears will find their way through. I guess crying might allow some emotional release that might help you recharge your batteries so to speak.
I will add that I'm also struggling not to cry too. Horrible memories from my childhood keep coming back, and it makes me realise that I was destined to end up the way I am today. The hopelessness is quite exhausting :-(

 

[S1mpleme]

I used to be so good at hiding my tears and how I felt. But, I've been crying every minute, the pain is still there even though I tried to distract myself. I want all of this to end, I'm so tired. I want to talk to someone and get help. But, another side of me don't want to get help since I feel so hopeless. My eye is so puffy from crying too much.
I was supposed to end my life today but, I don't have the energy to do it.

Nothing wrong with you, it's just life. Talk to me, maybe I can do something for you.