Venting is there something to truly be happy for?

[slitwristsbleedcold]

is there even something that makes you happy? something worth living for?

the more I go through every day, the more i feel like everything is absolutely useless and meaningless, it's nihilistic.

like, what the fuck Is this? what is this life?? it's actually so agonizing, wth... the only slight joy i get nowadays is when i smoke.

I can't understand how normies manage to go through this everyday, and still be somehow positive and cheerful, about interacting with others and the future, its impressive

 

[ZornTheDreaded]

is there even something that makes you happy? something worth living for?

the more I go through every day, the more i feel like everything is absolutely useless and meaningless, it's nihilistic.

like, what the fuck Is this? what is this life?? it's actually so agonizing, wth... the only slight joy i get nowadays is when i smoke.

I can't understand how normies manage to go through this everyday, and still be somehow positive and cheerful, about interacting with others and the future, its impressive

nope, nothing happy, nothing to live for, only thing to want is to CTB and soon.

 

[justanotherfailure]

I'd like to think there is, but sometimes it just feels hopeless. Even moments of happiness are fleeting, and they leave me emptier than I was before.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

to me there isn't anything to be happy for. fleeting pleasure addictions are not worth even 1 second of the worst pain to me.

the worst toturue , any suffering would't have trapped me others or have ever existed if it weren't for pleasure seeking or seeking things to make one happy.

evolution gamed us . put a pleasure and a carrot on a stick . and a fleeting pleasure reward as for example the enjoymeent you get from eating food. but it's only to pass on your genes . there is no other purpose why eating food is pleasurable .so just this example shows pleasure creates pain. there's much more a book no one has writtent to explain these things further. but if our ancestors didn't find food pleasurable they wouldn't eat enough and so die quicker before reproducing and then me and none of us would be here. and that's only one pleasure. so in a way evolution is tricking us gaming us scamming us. we think oh joy this feels good. but it's a lie. it feels good for the purpose of passing on your DNA genes. that's it. that's the purpose.

but these pleasurable enjoyable happy moments are fleeting . the worst pain is more intense and longer lasting. much more intense and much longer lasting. so it's a bait and switch . a scam.

plus on top of that imo these "things to be happy for" are meaningless time wasting addictions, pleasure addictions implanted into my brain by evolution ( for example eating food) and culture society ( watching youtube videos

the pleasure addicitons keep me distracted from what i need to do and to find out and internalize what reality really. time is the only resource you have and the addictions steal all my time and addict me more to them. they keep it from my mind to internalize how bad the worst pain is . it's because of seeking enjoyment i haven't made progress on deciding getting a suicide method ready to go , defeating my si etc.