discokicks

discokicks

Student
Apr 19, 2019
121
Kinda in the title. I always wanted to travel. I wanted to dj for a big 70s disco night. Those were snatched away by unbearable anxiety and alcoholism
 
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royM

royM

Member
Mar 22, 2019
18
I'd like to meet some alien lol
 
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snowman626

snowman626

Mage
Jan 28, 2019
545
cuddle with a beautiful woman
 
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Dan23

Dan23

Member
Apr 28, 2019
15
nothing will make anything any better.
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
I would like to go hike the Appalachian Trail once more. Or at least hike a couple hundred miles in the woods.
 
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Sick Boy

Sick Boy

Student
Oct 19, 2018
186
I´d like to live in a first world country for a week
 
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Onomotopoeia

Experienced
Feb 8, 2019
264
I want to max my credit cards, spend all my money on drugs and go travelling a bit and just have an awesome few weeks ...start with a cruise (because I probably cant bring my drugs for that) then travel a bit want a partner though someone to live it up with for a few weeks.

sigh
 
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dyingtodie

Student
Nov 29, 2018
115
Been there. Done that. Still wanted to end my life the whole time :) It's amazing how depression can cloud up even the best times with intense emotional pain for no reason.

I do still want to try stand up comedy. I'm funny as shit. But I know it takes a long time to get good on stage and I really don't want to deal with the people.
 
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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
Look at the stars and the night sky for the last time.
 
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StillWaiting

StillWaiting

Need cats to comfort me
Jul 28, 2018
550
I want to see the northern light. But I guess it is too troublesome so it is okay if it doesnt happen
 
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Memento Mori

Memento Mori

shambling garbage
Jan 24, 2019
573
bring one little scrap of peace into this world

or if i'm selfish: spending some time with a certain person before i go, best would be dying in her arms peacefully
 
Monster

Monster

Member
Apr 26, 2019
77
Not particularly I guess. Sure there's tons of stuff I imagine would be a cool future for me but they're all either impossible or require way too much effort. The only thing I'm really waiting for is to watch a movie that comes out, as silly as that is. The thought of never seeing future movies/videos of series I like is saddening to me, and is a dumb little thing keeping me here.
 
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Only Me Here

Only Me Here

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Apr 29, 2019
263
I want to max my credit cards, spend all my money on drugs and go travelling a bit and just have an awesome few weeks ...start with a cruise (because I probably cant bring my drugs for that) then travel a bit want a partner though someone to live it up with for a few weeks.

sigh
You took the words out of my mouth, i literally want to sell my place and spend everything i have and go out in a blaze of glory...but no one to do it with and ive already done too many things alone...
 
LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
Many things. Thinking about them and knowing they're no longer an option for me just makes it hurt worse.
 
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Gorgon

Gorgon

A sad sad
May 1, 2019
63
Figure it out. All of it. Why is life such shit
 
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RedSalvation15

Member
Mar 13, 2019
38
Most important for me: Experience love.
 
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Onomotopoeia

Experienced
Feb 8, 2019
264
You took the words out of my mouth, i literally want to sell my place and spend everything i have and go out in a blaze of glory...but no one to do it with and ive already done too many things alone...

Yea, I feel that at my core. A sad reality for all to many people, I think.

I do not have a house to sell but that makes this a bit more viable so you have that at least. Just find yourself a local partner!
 
Only Me Here

Only Me Here

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Apr 29, 2019
263
Yea, I feel that at my core. A sad reality for all to many people, I think.

I do not have a house to sell but that makes this a bit more viable so you have that at least. Just find yourself a local partner!
I dont see myself finding a stranger to have a last hurrah with...i also dont have the energy to pack up my whole place before i ctb as dumb as that sounds...its just a thought. i'd imagine that i wouldnt really enjoy it much anyway. Besides that i have been off of work since october, i got a settlement from my last work place as the CEO was sexually harassing me so ive pretty much done whatever i want for months without any structure. it does suck i lost a career i loved over it when i had all the proof and they should have got rid of him, but it paid me enough to basicaly do nothing my last year here which is what i have always dreamed. I do wish i could invite people to my home who need to go somewhere to Ctb, but obviously i would get into a lot of trouble for that...
 
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Misanthrope

Misanthrope

Mage
Oct 23, 2018
557
I wanted to write a book.
 
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Roger

Roger

I Liked Ike
May 11, 2019
972
Make sure that my beloved dogs have a good home together.
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
Have my art exhibited somewhere, try lesbian sex and dye my hair emerald green
 
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OnlyMercy

OnlyMercy

No More
Oct 23, 2018
190
Gamble. Gamble really big. Gamble dangerously. Put everything at stake one last time.
 
lululoo

lululoo

Mage
Dec 15, 2018
558
I wanted to have a serious relationship. I wanted to get my physical health back. That's all I've really cared about for the past 14 years... been too depressed/disinterested to care about much else.

But now that I have given up, all I really want is some time to have absolutely no obligations before I go. To not have to work or do things I don't want to. And I'm finally going to make it happen! Gonna quit my job very soon, then enjoy a few weeks to a few months of laziness before I go. I'll CTB when it feels right.
 
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