whydidthishappen

whydidthishappen

Cut open
May 6, 2024
74
Either 2006 or 2016. Both pivotal periods in my life where I could have chosen better paths but didn't. Sorry I can't elaborate 😞
 
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nolongerhumannn

nolongerhumannn

conny
Sep 12, 2024
32
Hello everyone,
I used to be a happy girl who enjoyed leaving the house every day to go to school, meet friends (yes I used to have friends) and go out in the evenings. . .

Well, it feels like that's been over for 4 years now. . .

Because of my depression I feel worse now than ever before.

I would like to know if you have ever had a good time in your life or experienced something nice. .

Thank you very much
probably like when i was 14-15, which is quite ironic because at the time i thought that was as bad as it could get.. but it was decently fun, id just fuck around on beaches all night with hs friends :)

hope youre doing well
 
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UniqueWorm

UniqueWorm

the horrors persist but so do i
Sep 9, 2024
37
when i was seven, shit got drastically worse over the years since then.
 
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s-w

Member
Jun 29, 2022
32
too many to count. If I could, I would live in limbo between 2018 and 2019 and never grow old. Things were so so simple and they slipped away so fast.
 
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DyingSoul

DyingSoul

I want to disappear while I'm pretty like this
Sep 10, 2018
20
Maybe my happy life was before i get pregnant.

My child is unwanted.
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
218
Honestly, not really. There's never been a time frame I could look back on and say "I wish I could go back to that time." If anything, my life currently is the best it's ever been because I have more autonomy than before. However, now that I have that control over my life, I just spend my time mulling over whether or not I should CtB.
 
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leavingsoonx

leavingsoonx

Headed to the other side
Sep 22, 2024
118
There are a lot of points I miss. Having a relationship, having friends, being able to go outside without feeling like I'm at the circus. I used to not mind crowds. I've lost everything while still alive except my life. I have no friends now and never will go to a concert again. They all tell me I deserve it anyways: I guess they were right all along. What makes me excited is that if my friends aren't really dead, everyone will finally be like "she was serious the whole time." The people I cared about don't even care that I'm gone, so maybe it's far fetched to think they would even care if I killed myself. They all want me to die anyways. It's my gift to myself and everyone
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,246
Sadly for me the only part of my life that I remember not being depressed were my first 8 years. From age 9 on things started to get bad at home and that bled into life and it's basically been non stop trauma since then. Decades of this shit....
 
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alltoomuch2

alltoomuch2

Wizard
Feb 10, 2024
678
When I lived in the US for some years and loved the job I did, earned a good wage and had all my expenses paid.
 
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CremstDearest

CremstDearest

Member
Nov 17, 2024
17
of course, theres alot of times i miss, i miss when things were simpler, though most of those i wouldnt change since its made me who i was today, it just.. i wish to relive those days again, someway or another.