Help Is rat poison an unreliable way to die?

[6o66yx]

I am homeless and in an mental ward rn, but I can leave if I want.

I'll get about 560€ (580$) next friday, I wanna leave the hospital and kms, my attempt with GBL and diazepame + opiates failed 1 month ago.

I want to really bad. If someone could help me, either in the comments or in PM, I'd really appreciate it.

 

[SVEN]

Very, very horrible way to die slowly with organ failure I'd say.

 

[Worndown]

Modern rat poison is high dose blood thinner. That will not be a good way to go.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

A distant cousin in my family ctb with rat poison. This was around 70 years ago. It is a horribly painful way to die...you're destroying your organs from the inside out, it is torture.

Rat poison is not nearly as dangerous as it was back then either...
I don't think it is a good method nowadays, even forgetting the horrible pain.