futur
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- Mar 2, 2019
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I am again in that phase when I can only think about suicide. Maybe I will do it soon, or maybe I will not have enough courage again. Last year and even earlier I tried to hang myself (partial hanging), but at the first signs of loss of consciousness, I found a foothold. I am too cowardly for this.
Last summer I prepared a method with chloroquine, but still not sure if everything has been done correctly.
Here is what I have:
approximately 20 grams of chloroquine phosphate in capsules 00
760 mg of diazepam
50 mg lorazepam expidet (fast-acting sublingual tablets, obtainable in Germany)
Clonazepam (rivotril) 180 mg
Metoclopramide 10 tablets
Granisetron 1 mg 5 tablets
Maybe I should buy more lorazepam?
I can get access to most medicines, other than opioids and phenobarbital (up to 300 mg), so I can readily consider other suggestions about medicines.
And I would also like to know where you think it is best to take pills. I live alone, but I would not like to do it in my apartment, I do not want to spoil the mood of other tenants. The hotel is also an option, but again I don't want to spoil the hotel's reputation with my death. You can still get poisoned right in the car, but this is kind of unpredictable.
I also want to send my farewell letters with the boomerang (gmail) service, with a delay of 36 hours. One letter to the police, one to my two friends and one more to my parents. I think that 36 hours will be enough (I will start taking metoclopramide on Thursday, and will be poisoned on Friday evening, so the employer will not look for me).
I found a method with sodium nitrite on this forum. This method is better because there is no risk of blindness. I think that it will be possible to combine sodium nitrite with benzodiazepines, so it will be more peaceful.
edit: or maybe i should combine both methods? This is also a nice idea
Last summer I prepared a method with chloroquine, but still not sure if everything has been done correctly.
Here is what I have:
approximately 20 grams of chloroquine phosphate in capsules 00
760 mg of diazepam
50 mg lorazepam expidet (fast-acting sublingual tablets, obtainable in Germany)
Clonazepam (rivotril) 180 mg
Metoclopramide 10 tablets
Granisetron 1 mg 5 tablets
Maybe I should buy more lorazepam?
I can get access to most medicines, other than opioids and phenobarbital (up to 300 mg), so I can readily consider other suggestions about medicines.
And I would also like to know where you think it is best to take pills. I live alone, but I would not like to do it in my apartment, I do not want to spoil the mood of other tenants. The hotel is also an option, but again I don't want to spoil the hotel's reputation with my death. You can still get poisoned right in the car, but this is kind of unpredictable.
I also want to send my farewell letters with the boomerang (gmail) service, with a delay of 36 hours. One letter to the police, one to my two friends and one more to my parents. I think that 36 hours will be enough (I will start taking metoclopramide on Thursday, and will be poisoned on Friday evening, so the employer will not look for me).
I found a method with sodium nitrite on this forum. This method is better because there is no risk of blindness. I think that it will be possible to combine sodium nitrite with benzodiazepines, so it will be more peaceful.
edit: or maybe i should combine both methods? This is also a nice idea
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