microwaved_dawg

microwaved_dawg

Certified dumbass
Nov 22, 2024
9
I've been dwelling on the idea of ctb for a little while now, I just can't seem to make up my mind about the method. I've read a lot about SN and it's effectiveness, it is also very cheap and esay to get in my country, I only have a bit of an issue getting the extra stuff like anti-emetics and sedatives. I am by no means a street guy and I don't have the slightest idea in how to get those meds without a prescription. I've thought multiple times about bribing a doctor, since corruption is very common here in mexico, but I'm really scared about what might happen if they don't cave in, will they tell me that I'm a dumbass for trying that?, will they tell me to just get the fuck out of their office?, will they call the police?.

All of this has led me to contemplate just jumping off a bridge that's nearby, it's about 12 meters high (39ft or 13yd) and has very little foot traffic and in general no bystanders other than a few in the nearby bus stop. There's already been two instances of people jumping and dying there, if the fall doesn't kill you the fast traffic below sure will. I usually go there every once in a while to sit on the railing, think about jumping and ultimately just taking a picture and walking away because I lack the balls to do it. Maybe SN is a bit better in the aspect that it doesn't look like an immediate danger unlike looking down the bridge.

Should I just man up and do it, or is SN really that much better?.

-Luis
 
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RULE8AM

RULE8AM

Hermetic era
Dec 11, 2024
11
You can get SN easier than AE & Benzos in Mexico? that's crazy.

You don't have any AEsā€¦ yet. So you shouldn't ctb settling by jumping off a bridge! Idk
 
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microwaved_dawg

microwaved_dawg

Certified dumbass
Nov 22, 2024
9
It's is not regulated and you can buy 1kg (2.2lb) of food grade SN for about 4-5 dollars online, you can even buy industrial grade SN for a little over 10 dollars although I'm not quite sure if you need a license for that. Benzos & AE DO require a prescription in all pharmacies since 2012. I reckon I could try buying them of small family-owned ones, but I'm not a 100% sure they could provide me those, kind of depends on their moral compass.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,040
Personally I'd prefer a poison method, I wish for a death as painless as possible, jumping sounds terrifying to me, I just wish for a poison to save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence, I wish I could access a death like that.
 
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purelydaft

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Apr 5, 2024
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12 meters is not very tall. You'd probably die if you manage to land 'correctly', but it's also not unlikely you'd survive (it seems it's pretty hard to properly orient yourself to fall in a certain way). Surviving a fall is terrible. Bones will be shattered and just a lot of pain in general, I assume. Medical intervention is likely in a public place. Recovery is also terrible and will inhibit any chances at normal life going forward or future attempts.
 
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cait_sith

cait_sith

Brain rotted, often missing word
Apr 8, 2024
196
12 meters is not high enough
 
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whereas

whereas

Member
Dec 12, 2024
8
12 meters is not high enough
Agree.

Also considering jumping from a bridge but from a 50+ m one. It's cheaper, easier and faster than SN, I think. But I have not decided yet, since I would have to land on a road below so the target is not very wide. Maybe ill end up doing both.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,261
Im a jumper ctb
12 Meters....DONT DO! NOT ENOUGH HIGH
LOTS OF RISK !
 
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Csmith8827

Csmith8827

Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
Oct 26, 2019
905
Who is that with Thom Yorke in your pfp?
 
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AnonymousL

AnonymousL

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Apr 5, 2023
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anti emetics and benzos are very easily obtainable through a legal way.. Getting it prescribed by ur doctor in a span of 3-6 months and they wont put the pieces together.
come up with some excuse.


Anti emetics: migrains wiith throwing up -> mother in law has the same issue and gave u *insert name of anti emettic* u want and it helped for the vomitting
Benzo: ur cat died and ur uncontrollably crying, anxious, ...
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

Experienced
Sep 5, 2024
270
12 meters is very risky, probably not safe enough and landing on traffic may cause some driver to run over you and cause him trauma or even injury. I'm considering 26 meters and rolling of the edge of a building to increase chances to not land on my feet. And that is also not considered safe enough.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,797
A minimum of 46 meters or higher is recommended for jumping. The medications for sn method are not necessity for success but for comfort, speed and added reassurance. Sn is what does the job.
 
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userharsh

Member
Dec 10, 2024
42
I've been dwelling on the idea of ctb for a little while now, I just can't seem to make up my mind about the method. I've read a lot about SN and it's effectiveness, it is also very cheap and esay to get in my country, I only have a bit of an issue getting the extra stuff like anti-emetics and sedatives. I am by no means a street guy and I don't have the slightest idea in how to get those meds without a prescription. I've thought multiple times about bribing a doctor, since corruption is very common here in mexico, but I'm really scared about what might happen if they don't cave in, will they tell me that I'm a dumbass for trying that?, will they tell me to just get the fuck out of their office?, will they call the police?.

All of this has led me to contemplate just jumping off a bridge that's nearby, it's about 12 meters high (39ft or 13yd) and has very little foot traffic and in general no bystanders other than a few in the nearby bus stop. There's already been two instances of people jumping and dying there, if the fall doesn't kill you the fast traffic below sure will. I usually go there every once in a while to sit on the railing, think about jumping and ultimately just taking a picture and walking away because I lack the balls to do it. Maybe SN is a bit better in the aspect that it doesn't look like an immediate danger unlike looking down the bridge.

Should I just man up and do it, or is SN really that much better?.

-Luis
You are in Mexico, just find N easily
 
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nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
737
I've been dwelling on the idea of ctb for a little while now, I just can't seem to make up my mind about the method. I've read a lot about SN and it's effectiveness, it is also very cheap and esay to get in my country, I only have a bit of an issue getting the extra stuff like anti-emetics and sedatives. I am by no means a street guy and I don't have the slightest idea in how to get those meds without a prescription. I've thought multiple times about bribing a doctor, since corruption is very common here in mexico, but I'm really scared about what might happen if they don't cave in, will they tell me that I'm a dumbass for trying that?, will they tell me to just get the fuck out of their office?, will they call the police?.

All of this has led me to contemplate just jumping off a bridge that's nearby, it's about 12 meters high (39ft or 13yd) and has very little foot traffic and in general no bystanders other than a few in the nearby bus stop. There's already been two instances of people jumping and dying there, if the fall doesn't kill you the fast traffic below sure will. I usually go there every once in a while to sit on the railing, think about jumping and ultimately just taking a picture and walking away because I lack the balls to do it. Maybe SN is a bit better in the aspect that it doesn't look like an immediate danger unlike looking down the bridge.

Should I just man up and do it, or is SN really that much better?.

-Luis
I think it is up to you ultimately, what method you're most comfortable with. 12 meters doesn't sound like it would be very effective.
Since you are in Mexico, you may as well try to find N.
Also, consider that plenty of people have taken SN without AEs or benzos and have succeeded.
Also, AEs are available over the counter in some South American countries if you're able to travel.
 
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microwaved_dawg

microwaved_dawg

Certified dumbass
Nov 22, 2024
9
I'm not really informed in the whole jumping method and I really appreciate your feedback.

Anti emetics: migrains wiith throwing up -> mother in law has the same issue and gave u *insert name of anti emettic* u want and it helped for the vomitting
Benzo: ur cat died and ur uncontrollably crying, anxious, ...
I think I'll try this, I'll do without the benzos because those are usually only prescribed in mental institutions, it's kind of hard getting them from legal sources. My gf has some mental issues and they gave her that after a LOT of convincing (she doesn't take them anymore, she's on anti-psychotics now for her bpd).

12 meters is very risky, probably not safe enough and landing on traffic may cause some driver to run over you and cause him trauma or even injury. I'm considering 26 meters and rolling of the edge of a building to increase chances to not land on my feet. And that is also not considered safe enough.
I hadn't actually thought of the effect that it would have on people involved and it's kind of rude to traumatize someone for life, that alone is enough to make me walk away from this shit plan.

You are in Mexico, just find N easily
Injections are yucky and it's waaaaay more expensive than just buying SN.

Who is that with Thom Yorke in your pfp?
He's a mexican singer, ValentĆ­n Elizalde.

Damn, i wanted to Message you but i couldn't
I'm a "new" (been lurking but just registered recently) member so maybe I don't have the rights to do that, I don't really know.
 
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userharsh

Member
Dec 10, 2024
42
I'm not really informed in the whole jumping method and I really appreciate your feedback.


I think I'll try this, I'll do without the benzos because those are usually only prescribed in mental institutions, it's kind of hard getting them from legal sources. My gf has some mental issues and they gave her that after a LOT of convincing (she doesn't take them anymore, she's on anti-psychotics now for her bpd).


I hadn't actually thought of the effect that it would have on people involved and it's kind of rude to traumatize someone for life, that alone is enough to make me walk away from this shit plan.


Injections are yucky and it's waaaaay more expensive than just buying SN.


He's a mexican singer, ValentĆ­n Elizalde.


I'm a "new" (been lurking but just registered recently) member so maybe I don't have the rights to do that, I don't really know.
You also drink it, no need to inject it
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies. Forever 22.
Apr 25, 2023
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In terms of chaos, sn is better. It would also cause trauma to your family if you jumped from a high place and your body was smashed.
 
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brain-fog

New Member
Dec 11, 2024
4
Jumping is probably preferable as it is more or less painless and with a lesser chance of survival, but this requires enough height, 12 meters are by no means enough. If this bridge is your only choice, you should go for SN.
 
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been__ready

Member
Nov 25, 2024
91
Well as someone who has tried jumping from 600 ft I can tell you it is very very difficult, even when success is guaranteed. Every alarm in your body will go off making it hard to complete. I spent a week trying to CTB from the same bridge going back multiple times with no avail. I have since switched to SN - hoping and praying for this more "humane" method. I always know I can return to the bridge if I need to, but trying this alternative first. šŸ™šŸ»

Hoping you find the peace you seekā€¦
 
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CantDoIt

Elementalist
Jul 18, 2024
859
I am in MX and got meto without prescription but not Benzos. I know some people here who get them easily for sleep but I have no idea how.
 
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