Yes I'm talking of the proccess of purchase, after you've already found what youre looking for and its current availability. If you know how to encrypt messages and pay in crypto. And you are talking about finding and searching, which is the first thing you do and nothing what I've stated.
"I think like nothing is peaceful and simple as it seems" was a personal feeling that I've got as to me peaceful is also in peace with myself and even if you choose methods like N or Intert Gas your SI might still kick in and panic atleast this might be different for any person. If it comes to simplicity everything might seem simple even if you know some things will be hard to get, it's just the fact that it can get even more complicated depending on various reasons.
"maybe more peacful than the other options available" Yes, there are more peaceful and less painful options than SN, and there are also less peaceful and more painful like for example jumping.
No you can't find N in dark web, you can't find it anywhere except in Mexico in some places, that's why I said to you find genuine N in dark web because you said you can get everything in dark web
Don't say your personal opinion about different ctb methods without proof which will create unnecessary confusion for others, if you don't have proof to backup your claims better don't say anything because you are just creating fear among the people
We are talking about peaceful and painless methods, si and panic are different things, doesn't make sense to connect all these
"If it comes to simplicity everything might seem simple even if you know some things will be hard to get, it's just the fact that it can get even more complicated depending on various reasons.", what are you talking about, stop saying your thoughts and philosophy without proof and this statement doesn't makes sense
"maybe more peacful than the other options available" Yes, there are more peaceful and less painful options than SN, and there are also less peaceful and more painful like for example jumping.", why you talking about jumping now, I didn't even talk about that, we are talking about peaceful methods like N and inert gas methods which are proved that they are peaceful and painless
To anyone who is reading this, do your research and learn about all the methods, don't listen to people feelings, opinions and philosophy when it comes to choosing the methods, I had been doing research for so long, I am damn sure that N (if you can find it) and inert gas (if done correctly) peaceful and painless, next comes SN which can be uncomfortable mostly nausea, vomiting, stomach pain and headache which can be avoided by following the right procedures
I have proof and research to backup my claims that N and inert gas methods are peaceful and painless!