Is it normal to feel this way?

[Phyreen]

I've been suicidal for some time now, and I have suffered quite a bit over the past few months, but now, I feel as thought it's gotten worse. The suffering I experience isn't even for any reason at this point. The abyss will literally just consume me, and I'll be in such psychological pain that I genuinely can't cope. I'll pace around my room almost frantically, imagining things in my head to try to cope, breathing deeply, for like over an hour, maybe two, when these episodes occur, and it hasn't really been like this before. I suppose I've felt this awful, but usually for some reason or other. Now, it's just unrelenting pain, and I can't even say why. I'll talk to chatgpt too to get shit out my system.

I suppose this would be described as depression? And it's not even feeling numb or disinterested, it's literal mental pain that won't stop. It's started happening over the past few days. I don't know what's wrong with me. And the thing is, I don't even think anything would help. i just don't know. Is this common? It's a detached, almost absurd suffering.

 

[if_i_make_it]

these sound like panic attacks, tbh.

 

[losergirl]

coming across your post really resonated with me because i get stuck in similar loops and i feel like im also in one now. i recently made a thread talking about some of it.

its really frustrating feeling like you can't make your mind stop. and not knowing why you're feeling on edge 24/7 is deliberating. im sorry that you are having a tough time right now and i really hope you can get out of this loop soon or at least feel some relief.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

You should definitely see a psychologist if possible. They could help specify and narrow down the root cause of your feelings. And possibly even get you prescribed medication that could help.