Is it normal to be this excited

[painofzed]

I've finally decided to do it and am getting everything ready for the next 2 weeks. The thing is I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I feel like a kid at Christmas. A little less than two weeks from today I won't be in constant misery anymore, I just won't be.

 

[PoisonousPotato]

It's normal to feel excited. If you're like me, this excitement is called hope, and it's not something I encounter often

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it makes sense feeling that way and it's completely understandable. I think that if someone no longer feels trapped here and they know that they will soon be gone from this world it can be such a relief. At least to me, being free from this horrific world and being able to sleep for all eternity would be the best thing possible.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think this is actually quite common... When you think about how suicides are often reported in the papers- 'Everyone was so shocked because the person seemed to be getting better. Even seeming to be more optimistic than before.' I mean- it makes sense to us- OF COURSE they were! They were FINALLY coming to the end of their struggle. I imagine most prisoners look forward to getting out of jail in the last few weeks of their sentence.

I can't wait to not have to worry about the future. If I have the health, wealth and time, I'm planning to have a nice time before I CTB. I may even take a holiday, or a few mini breaks. That doesn't mean life is worth it in the long run though!

 

[emptybox]

I'm extremely excited to escape the burden of being alive, not excited about having to do it and the process of doing it though. So I have mixed feelings. Normal or not, it feels better to be excited so I prefer that and try to keep myself excited. There's nothing else that causes this feeling.

 

[itsallpointless]

I think what you're feeling is hope. Kind of like the feeling of being locked in a cage and just now being able to exit. I am the same