Discussion Is it fine to try finding a CTB buddy here? Or just honestly someone to talk to.

[SerialFailer]

I've only ever had a couple "close" internet friends and no rl friends in my life, so finding this place at least makes me feel a bit better that there are other people who share the same woes as me or at least can understand my thoughts in a way.

I'm not asking for someone to do it at the same time as me or something like that, but maybe just someone to call me in the last minutes or even text.
I'm not really good with people though and afraid of getting someone evil who's going to try messing me up more, but just as afraid of going out the last dozen minutes alone.
I guess I should die alone just as I lived but it still scares me, almost like every attempt that got closer to succeeding made me even more scared. I don't know.

My newfound chosen method is SN and it should be done in just over a week if things somewhat go as planned.

 

[noaccount]

Hi, I probably don't right now have the mental wherewithal to like witness a person dying though I philosophically spiritually support that being a thing, I'm sorry you haven't found understanding in meatspace, hope you can find it here...

 

[faust]

Hello, I think death is something very personal and I would choose dying alone almost in any case. I don't want to depend on anybody else in this issue. There are some rare when I could CTB with a partner - this is mainly "compatibility", maybe a soulmate or just somebody who I would like to see the last moments. I guess it would be hard for me to get close to somebody before I die. Would enjoy hitchhiking, hiking with somebody before we go, with somebody who is not afraid to take risks and have a nice adventure before death.

 

[autumnal]

There is a Partners Methathread you can find pinned in the Suicide Discussion group.

 

[noaccount]

Be careful people use that for sketchy shit sometimes tho, there's anoter pinned thread next to it warning abt some bad run-ins people had...

 

[SerialFailer]

Be careful people use that for sketchy shit sometimes tho, there's anoter pinned thread next to it warning abt some bad run-ins people had...

Thanks for the warning, and this is what I'm afraid of... but I don't think it matters much if someone has a fetish with watching me die, as long as they're nice about it.
I know enough not to trust about divulging too much information or meeting people in unsafe settings though, I think.

Hello, I think death is something very personal and I would choose dying alone almost in any case. I don't want to depend on anybody else in this issue. There are some rare when I could CTB with a partner - this is mainly "compatibility", maybe a soulmate or just somebody who I would like to see the last moments. I guess it would be hard for me to get close to somebody before I die. Would enjoy hitchhiking, hiking with somebody before we go, with somebody who is not afraid to take risks and have a nice adventure before death.

I just meant in a way to have someone to voice chat over with, if possible I also wanted to cooperate with my SN experience in details if there's a trusted member who wanted to save the information or even record it.

Hi, I probably don't right now have the mental wherewithal to like witness a person dying though I philosophically spiritually support that being a thing, I'm sorry you haven't found understanding in meatspace, hope you can find it here...

Thank you. I understand it's too much to ask for, but even if I don't find anyone who's up for that I still wanted to tell myself I tried.