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cosmosis

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Just seeing how completely worthless I am to everyone in my life. I had a suicide attempt that put me in the ICU on a ventilator for a few days back in August, and going through that really outlined how completely worthless I am. Is it so wrong to want someone to care?
 
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What does the care you seek look like to you?
 
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What does the care you seek look like to you?
Just someone to sit down and actually talk to me, and really listen to me. I am killing myself with my drug addiction and I don't know how to get help at this point. I watch intervention and just imagine people giving me an intervention and a way to get into residential treatment. This addiction is a nightmare because I am addicted to over the counter cough suppressant, DXM.
 
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No, it's not bad. It's a true need. Addictions and mental disorders can happen when that true and honest need is empty.
 
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Regen

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Absolutely normal to want that!!
I can really understand why you so desperately want help with your addiction and the pain behind it. I'm very sorry to read this and I always have the spontaneous impulse to help, but sadly that does not work :-/

As a teenager I was offered a lot of help, but when you're an adult hardly anyone is interested. It would be so nice if you had someone to help you like you would want from a mother...

Are there free drug counseling centers in your country? Or self-help groups? Narcotics anonymous for example. It's so incredibly sad to read how difficult it is for some people to get help.

I send you love and hope! And if you want the courage to try something again.

Regen
 
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Just seeing how completely worthless I am to everyone in my life. I had a suicide attempt that put me in the ICU on a ventilator for a few days back in August, and going through that really outlined how completely worthless I am. Is it so wrong to want someone to care?
Yeah I've been trying to look for someone to care about me for a while now. Probably just massively entitled
 
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Yeah I've been trying to look for someone to care about me for a while now. Probably just massively entitled
I don't think you're entitled. It's completely human to want someone to care. I hate that we can be made to feel like that's so bad, to want love and compassion.
 
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