Is it bad to want to commit suicide, leaving my old parents alone?

[funeralcat]

I have old parents who in a few years will have no one to take care of them or give them money. I can't stand life anymore and I want to leave this world. I want to die, but guilt haunts me.

 

[OceanBlue]

It's up to you, but you don't owe your parents anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact is that even if this upsets others, none of us are obligated to continue existing here for the sake of others. Grief and loss are inevitable as long as one exists here, we all have to die and lose everything someday, and if people don't wish to deal with loss then they shouldn't so cruelly force life into this world, burdening that person with existence, procreation certainly is so incredibly selfish. But anyway it's a personal decision deciding what to do, it's your existence so it's your choice whether you wish to delay the inevitable or not.

 

[Little_Suzy]

You love and care for your parents if you are concerned about them.

You can plan for their elderly care and get life insurance. If you don't have any savings, take out a loan or make a credit card cash withdrawal to leave money for your parents.

Alternatively, you may stay and help them. People who care about one another do not desert each other in their hour of greatest need.

Most individuals who desire ctb lack support in their lives; therefore, do not listen to them. They behave as though they are unconcerned, yet they are. They want help, love, compassion, and understanding.

They preach about how the world lacks compassion, which is why they hate life, yet they don't even try to show compassion for elderly parents.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Cemeteries are full of irreplaceable people. Becoming one of them is your right.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I feel the same, literally my mum is the only one who cares about me (and even she probably doesn't like the person I am) I feel so useless and incapable that even if I did stick around to look after her, would I be any use? I was around for my dad and grandmother and felt like I didn't do anything at all (my mum did it all) I'm not exactly a carer or a nurse and my mum getting older and sick terrifies me. I literally can't deal with it so I think it's either CTB this year or wait until she's gone and I literally will have no other choice. It's kind of an impossible situation so I know how you feel. Are you an only child? I have siblings but only one of them could really step up and look after my mum but he'd probably resent it because he's a loner (so am I) so I don't know how useful he'd be either.

I feel like we get put in such horrible situations of responsibility-we have to worry about our parents health, watch them get old, sick, die and then plan a funeral. It's so depressing and I don't think they even think about this, and yet here we are thinking about the guilt we'd feel leaving our parents behind. They don't seem to have any problems thinking they'll be the ones to leave us behind?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do sympathise with you. I'm holding on for my Dad- but to be fair, I feel able to tread water at the moment. It's really up to you whether you feel like you can cope anymore. I'm sorry. I know how difficult it is.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

That's a tough decision that you alone are going to have to grapple with and ultimately make. Did they take care of you to the best of their abilities when you were younger? Being needed can be a powerful motivator to tough it out for sometime longer in this world. I'm not trying to tell you, or even suggest to you, what you should do. You're going to have to live, or die, as the case may be, with the decision you make, so give it the amount of time and contemplation it deserves. Good luck.

 

[miserabletires9]

I am in the same boat. My parents are old, and my ctb would basically end their lives. They would probably can never move on from my ctb, I am afraid that my mom even would try ctb afterwards. But my pain is just too much