Is false hope in hopeless situation part of the SI?

[R_N]

Is your mind playing tricks on you to make you live longer and not ctb?

 

[Saddad]

Yes in a word.

I lean on others to the point of forcing them to tell me what my s.i wants to hear.

Later on reflection its meaning is almost nothing. But it does keep me plodding towards the inevitable.....

 

[TowerUpright]

For me it was waves of regret and fear of the unknown.

I'm hoping when I choose to go with SN, I'll be unconscious quick enough to not worry.

 

[Sensei]

Is your mind playing tricks on you to make you live longer and not ctb?

Does it matter? Even if there's just a flicker of hope, it might mean that you're not ready to leave yet.

 

[MysticPerception]

If some pure nonsense shoots in to your head like things will magically get better then maybe. But if you start thinking about logical possibilities I'd say that's actually you yourself not being sure and maybe still holding a sliver of hope even if you thought you didn't anymore.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I already destroyed my own false hope. I made it my mission to destroy it. Now I'm just waiting for the right time.

 

[voyager]

I think it gets more complicated when you've actually enjoyed life at some point. The mind has a hard time letting go and comprehending that it's simply not feasible anymore. This can drag on for a long time, possibly forever. But anything is possible, of course.

 

[Rena rossy]

I would say definetly yes... But like they had say before... Things won't magically get better... Things can change but we don't know for sure... If it could be for worst either... In my case, sometimes false hope passes by but it is like seconds, I get more excited when I think that I already have my ctb date and place than in waking up tomorrow... I feel hopeless... And tired from my very soul

 

[Flume]

Is your mind playing tricks on you to make you live longer and not ctb?

No, there's always hope it's not SI. Things can always get better, even if you deny it in your head your heart still believes it.

 

[Moonicide]

For a while, yes. It was love that was holding me back, but now there's nothing that can hold me here... Recently I was bawling my eyes out due to my boyfriend. He is a gamer and I've always had a habit of making him mixtapes. I gave him my final one that is symbolic of my death, but he won't know the message I left him until I'm gone. Anyway, he was playing the music while he was gaming and streaming. One of his followers asked what was the chill background music, to which he said, "It's a mix my girlfriend made for me. Isn't she sweet?" He had no idea I was watching him stream, so those words were genuine. I just lost it and cried myself to sleep. Not because I want to stay, but because it's going to hurt him.

 

[zherhk]

Absolutely!
For the umpteenth time is trying to find hope or looking to find something for a positive outcome, but then logic and rationality tells me what's actually the reality in terms of long term convenience.

 

[TAW122]

I think so, and so far I'm getting closer and closer to the point of quashing that pesky 'false hope' that comes up in various forms. I simply cannot afford to have this stupid thing interfere with my attempt when I actually go through it later this year.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

Yes.

My life has always been shit and always getting worse. However, I dedicated myself to getting through my 20s. The end of my 20s was kind of less horrible, but last year was utter shit. My meds failed and I've gotten exceptionally dedicated to catching the bus. However, unlike Back In The Day, I'm now afraid of failing at the attempt (and without the courage to jump from extreme heights)