hopefully if you had an episode, you will feel better again for a while, and it sounds like you are young. I'd make a big list of anything you enjoy, and keep having things you enjoy to look forward to and tick off. For me, my depression is chronic and constant, so not episodic. I have nevertheless told myself I will keep trying remedies - from plant remedies to medication, until I am sure that nothing helps. Some of the stuff I take has helped me for two weeks, then pooped out (Polygala Tenuifoila, L-Tryptophan, SAM-e). Some of it helps me, but makes the skin peel off my feet (Tianeptine). I have a couple more plant remedies I am getting tomorrow, then if no joy, in a few weeks time I will test another med - Moclobemide. Then Prozac. Not all at once. Don't give up for now. Also new treatments are being developed all the time... xx