Permanently ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, to me existence just feels like a cruel mistake that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, I personally just wish to be non-existent free from the torturous, futile burden of existing, all that can bring me peace is being permanently unconscious for all eternity. No matter what I'd prefer to peacefully not exist than be enslaved in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just waiting to die anyway, I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured in agony by old age, I'd never wish for such terrible, pointless suffering rather I just want peace instead, for me non-existence is all that's desirable, I see existence as deeply undesirable in every way, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I wish to be permanently unable to suffer instead.