i know this is kind of stupid, but it is a little bit funny to me. even though suicide is a really serious time of life, i am still kind of fantasizing about what food to eat, my brain is fantasizing about future food to eat as if im gonna live a thousand years lmao. i still really want food though like i wanna cook a lot before i die just for the sensation of eating.
CrazyMary
Student
- Sep 20, 2020
- 137
lucacaro
Star
- Dec 17, 2020
- 212
I have a weird relationship with food so eh. But it was really annoying the day I almost drank SN because I had not eaten in what felt like forever but it was really like... 15 hours? Wanted to do it on an empty stomach though.
olieolieoxenfree
Member
- Dec 29, 2020
- 46
If food didn't taste so good, I'd probably be dead lol. That is one thing that has kept me alive. "What will I cook tomorrow?" is a thought that rattles my brain
CrazyMary
Student
- Sep 20, 2020
- 137
lucacaro
Star
- Dec 17, 2020
- 212
I only was able to go so long without eating because like 9 of those hours I was asleep. Though once i was really sitting there holding the SN mixture I forgot all about my hunger.
ihavetoleave
Member
- Dec 28, 2020
- 89
It is the only thing I have left to enjoy it seems. I tried to not eat as much (esp sweets) this past week and found myself dreaming of trying to buy a decadent cake. Didn't succeed in the dream and I was so sad about it. The only thing I really look forward to anymore, life is really tough without looking forward to eating at least.
MindFog
:Professional Hypocrite:
- Nov 19, 2020
- 732
It's one of my only comforts.. Even when I don't have the appetite, I still plan what I'll eat next time.
I still have a problem with eating (underweight) but I never left my love for it.
I still have a problem with eating (underweight) but I never left my love for it.
