Is anyone here also a recluse

[Ghostly]

Basically I haven't had friends in years and I'm starting to not leave my house much well more like ever I can't seem to bring myself to go outside I become physically sick when I leave and I get sad and anxious does anyone else experience this??

 

[Snake of Eden]

Welcome to recluse paradise

 

[HappyPotato]

me, i am. i have family but not really any friends in a while.

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

I only leave my house to nightwalk and buy drinks. I try to walk through empty places to not see any group of friends or any couple kissing, these things give me triggers.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I rarely leave the house. I cannot stand most people. Pretty much all my life is spent in one room. It is so depressing. I wish I was never born in the first place, I am so tired of this pointless existence. I just try to distract myself all day but I do not enjoy anything. The thought of going anywhere with a lot of people makes me feel ill, so I can relate. People are loud, annoying. I am too tired to do anything, there is no future for me.

 

[BrokenHopes]

Yeah I can totally relate. Have been isolated alot in my life. I have made some attempts to break it and get out in the world. But my brain protests against all the impressions and sounds and goes on high alert, or maybe it is the other way around.
Well well. SS is a good and mostly safe space for us recluse people.
Wish you the best.

 

[down for the count]

I am a NEET and get Amazon Prime so I only need to leave my house a couple of times a month. I get very anxious when I know I have to leave the house soon. I know that things will go badly and I have no control over the situation.

 

[AstroV]

I've gradually become more of a recluse over the past year. Although I've really always been one.

 

[Arvinneedstodie]

Me, I am. I'm 25 and have been recluse since the end of high school 7 years ago. First 4 years I intentionally isolated myself to the point I lost all my "friends", and alienated myself from my family. A few years later I became very agoraphobic and stayed indoor for 7 months straight, where my mother would bring me supplies every week to keep me alive. The last 3 years I have tried to break out of my isolation, but here I am still lonely and hopeless. I'm no longer agoraphobic though, I've been working on and off and jobs helped me overcome a lot of the anxiety of going outside. I no longer fear crowds, but rather numb, annoyed, and really jealous.

 

[Versailles]

Basically I haven't had friends in years and I'm starting to not leave my house much well more like ever I can't seem to bring myself to go outside I become physically sick when I leave and I get sad and anxious does anyone else experience this??

In my case, lately I have been going out a lot around the city, hoping to make friends, but I have not made it yet, and I end up drinking in a bar. It seems that nobody wants me haha ..

 

[Beeper]

I have rarely left the house in the last few months. I tend to prefer solitude when I am depressed.

I am trying to turn the ship around though, so I may venture out later this week.

I have also applied to a few jobs with the hopes that I can recover what's left of this life.

 

[ScaredToLive]

On the face of it I shouldn't be, I have friends (not as many as I used to) but still. I don't find myself doing anything now, everyone is married or whatever and they don't go out

 

[AstroV]

Yes, I rarely leave the house. I cannot stand most people. Pretty much all my life is spent in one room. It is so depressing. I wish I was never born in the first place, I am so tired of this pointless existence. I just try to distract myself all day but I do not enjoy anything. The thought of going anywhere with a lot of people makes me feel ill, so I can relate. People are loud, annoying. I am too tired to do anything, there is no future for me.

In my case, lately I have been going out a lot around the city, hoping to make friends, but I have not made it yet, and I end up drinking in a bar. It seems that nobody wants me haha ..

How are you able to go to a bar alone? I'd die of anxiety. T_T

 

[Versailles]

How are you able to go to a bar alone? I'd die of anxiety. T_T

I guess they have been a regular place for me for quite some time

 

[ClownMe]

Pretty much, I only leave the house for work or when im forced to and have no serious friendships in real life.

 

[Ghostly]

Pretty much, I only leave the house for work or when im forced to and have no serious friendships in real life.

this is me

 

[miserableforever]

Basically I haven't had friends in years and I'm starting to not leave my house much well more like ever I can't seem to bring myself to go outside I become physically sick when I leave and I get sad and anxious does anyone else experience this??

Good luck seeing me outside lol

 

[iloverachel]

Me! Outcast and recluse for 3 decades.
All i do is lay down and rot at home

 

[tbroken]

Here I am, I even paid for errors that i never committed and ppl just disgust me. This is not the life i aimed for, but at least i have a decent amount of money in my bank account and a PC I did not make good choices out of life due to trauma and injury and now I'm always at home and i don't know many 'good' ppl.
Better like this then to rot in hell.
Also i don't think i ever had friends, my parents chose a really bad place for me to have birth and grow up. It is bad to say, but if I could swap all my memories from 0 to 18 with something else, I would do it without esitation.

 

[Shadowpriest]

Partially. I used to live on my own in an apartment. My marchroute consisted of going to work>going to the store>heading home, just changing the order. I really enjoyed that model of living but got tired of the job so I left both the job and the apartment and now I'm a NEET at my fam's place. Hope it would change soon, I'm not used to live with someone and it makes me anxious yet can't move cause don't have job/money

 

[CheekyPhobia]

Something adjacent to a recluse at least. I'm practically nocturnal, only venturing out at night or late in the afternoon for shopping. I relate to the sadness you said you experience when you see other people. Whether it's teenagers in groups laughing with each other, couples doting on each other, seemingly content adults in nice clothes that are well-groomed indicating success with developmental milestones. All of those small things remind me of what i am and what i lack, and it certainly brings me no joy. As for anxiousness though, i used to but not so much anymore. But it absolutely is reasonable to feel that way. What people don't ever acknowledge is that exposure therapy only works if you're exposed to positive stimuli, in this hostile and unforgiving time you are more than likely to be ridiculed and treated crassly so that anxiety is a natural development. That anxiety you feel is the atrophy of the already insufficient social skills that are imparted upon younger people in a technological age, of no fault of their own, coupled with continued negative experiences; it has it's causes.
My only friends are online and our interactions are shallow but it's something i guess. I've spent too long in complete and utter isolation for my brain to ever function normally again. I'll always be cynical and weary of everything no matter my circumstances now. I'm halfway to becoming the man in Notes from the Underground.

 

[tbroken]

Something adjacent to a recluse at least. I'm practically nocturnal, only venturing out at night or late in the afternoon for shopping. I relate to the sadness you said you experience when you see other people. Whether it's teenagers in groups laughing with each other, couples doting on each other, seemingly content adults in nice clothes that are well-groomed indicating success with developmental milestones. All of those small things remind me of what i am and what i lack, and it certainly brings me no joy. As for anxiousness though, i used to but not so much anymore. But it absolutely is reasonable to feel that way. What people don't ever acknowledge is that exposure therapy only works if you're exposed to positive stimuli, in this hostile and unforgiving time you are more than likely to be ridiculed and treated crassly so that anxiety is a natural development. That anxiety you feel is the atrophy of the already insufficient social skills that are imparted upon younger people in a technological age, of no fault of their own, coupled with continued negative experiences; it has it's causes.
My only friends are online and our interactions are shallow but it's something i guess. I've spent too long in complete and utter isolation for my brain to ever function normally again. I'll always be cynical and weary of everything no matter my circumstances now. I'm halfway to becoming the man in Notes from the Underground.

It was a pleasure to read your comment and I also think there is nothing to be ashamed about it(not saying that you actually feel ashamed).
I would also say that 'nice clothes' don't mean happiness, or they don't necessarily express wealth.
I know for example ppl that own activities like restaurants or stuff, they have 100k(x) debts with workers, banks and stuff, but still wear nice clothes, ride on big expensive cars and have big houses.
Being a loner is not a negative thing, as long as you produce something and you are skilled in something, you can actually survive on your own.
Also... To feed 30 ppl you would need a big cake, to feed only 1 ppl you would just need a small slice of that cake, don't you think?

 

[LunarLight]

I only get out of bed for groceries, when I can. I should have seen a friend today but I was just too depressed to get out of bed. I'm trying to sign up for college next year, but I'm not sure I'm gonna make it. I already tried last year and failed to show up.