Is 1 > 1,000,000?

[Deathcabforugly]

So when I think about the reasons I have to live verses the reasons I have to ctb, the reasons to ctb out number by a factor of about a million. I've got a million reasons to "opt out", but I think about how ctbing would affect my family; mainly how it would affect my mom. So is 1>1,000,000? Mathematically, of course not, but today, just for today, it's going to be and it's keeping me alive.
What's your one thing that you can focus on to keep you alive just for today?

 

[MaybeSoon]

Friends and family are the main thing keeping me here. Also a slight case of Fomo

 

[Luchs]

So when I think about the reasons I have to live verses the reasons I have to ctb, the reasons to ctb out number by a factor of about a million. I've got a million reasons to "opt out", but I think about how ctbing would affect my family; mainly how it would affect my mom. So is 1>1,000,000? Mathematically, of course not, but today, just for today, it's going to be and it's keeping me alive.
What's your one thing that you can focus on to keep you alive just for today?

I can't tell you that. No one but yourself can decide on this, it is your life, only you can judge its worth. No matter how you choose, I hope you won't regret it.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I hate my life but
I can't kill myself tonight because I still have laundry, notes, emails to finish.
That aside, on a positive note, I have food in the fridge, even alcohol, I should be grateful for those basic things because I certainly don't taken them for granted.

 

[Deathcabforugly]

I hate my life but
I can't kill myself tonight because I still have laundry, notes, emails to finish.
That aside, on a positive note, I have food in the fridge, even alcohol, I should be grateful for those basic things because I certainly don't taken them for granted.

I love this! Can't ctb because of laundry, notes, and emails. I feel like sometimes staying alive is all about perspective, because the more I stay busy, the better I tend to feel. I got shit to do! No time to ctb!

 

[Luchs]

I love this! Can't ctb because of laundry, notes, and emails. I feel like sometimes staying alive is all about perspective, because the more I stay busy, the better I tend to feel. I got shit to do! No time to ctb!

Makes me think of Jessie Ventura.
"I ain't got time to bleed!"

 

[KleinerWolf]

I love this! Can't ctb because of laundry, notes, and emails. I feel like sometimes staying alive is all about perspective, because the more I stay busy, the better I tend to feel. I got shit to do! No time to ctb!

I have a small obsession with having things organised even if I die.
I most definitely struggle with leaving a note. I find myself drafting one, delete, then create a new one repetively.

I rather be alive for myself and for my family even though they dont get me.
It's annoying my situations are futile that part of me actually wants to die.

You are right, keeping busy definitely helps with having things at bay. It's nice not have to think of the bad 24/7.

 

[Arrow]

So is 1>1,000,000? Mathematically, of course not, but today, just for today, it's going to be and it's keeping me alive.
What's your one thing that you can focus on to keep you alive just for today?

inspirational. the thing keeping me alive is my ability to change the shitty things in my life.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

My own laziness: I wanted a clean apartment before I ctb. Now I go through cycles of cleaning one part in preparation, but not the other. At times I get done preparing, but then don't feel suicidal anymore.
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And I had a talk with my brother today, which made me infinitely sad. I don't want to fuck up his life since he's on a good way – he has a chance to grasp at happiness, I don't.

 

[Walilamdzi]

It's very similar for me.