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butterfly3

butterfly3

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Apr 2, 2022
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my intrusive thoughts go completely against my morals and make me feel lime killing myself even more. i dont even wanna explain what they're like, all i know is they gibe me so much anxiety, guilt and rumination. they actually calmed down over the past few months, but the effects of them still remain, like when i get them in dreams, or just the anxiety. im such a bad person and i just need to kill myself. this paired with all the other problems in my life makes life completely unbearable
 
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justsurrender

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Oct 8, 2021
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You are not a bad person. Sometimes your mind can work against you, but intrusive thoughts don't make you a bad person. Intrusive thoughts are just that: intrusive. You shouldn't blame yourself for someone breaking into your house, and you aren't a bad person because your mind works against you and supplies you with unwanted thoughts. You are more than your unwanted thoughts
 
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ilikepink

ilikepink

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Apr 13, 2022
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what makes a thought intrusive is the fact that we don't want it -- that alone shows you aren't a bad person. bad people don't feel guilty for thinking bad thoughts.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds very awful what you are going through, I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. It is horrible how our thoughts are capable of torturing us. I wish you the best.
 
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demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
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I understand. I also have intrusive thoughts. Some thoughts will play on a loop or pop up constantly out of nowhere. It is painful, feeling that your own mind is working against you. Of course you are not a bad person for having these thoughts.
 
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