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UnluckyYogi
Brain damage from antipsychotics
- Aug 2, 2024
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I went missing from home and didn't want to return, I had too much fun in nature with my tent and sleeping bag.You said above that your kundalini experience got you psychotic. How, specifically?
Were you catatonic for periods of time? Did you experience extreme sensations of hot or cold or pain? Were you roaring or hissing or otherwise making weird sounds? Please describe your actions that made your family call the cops on you and the doctors inject you with antipsychotic drugs.
My first kundalini experience was at the age of 24, didn't result in hospitalization.But those actions alone shouldn't have merited intervention from the police or the doctors. Why would they commit you into a psychiatric facility if those were the only things you were engaged in during your kundalini experience? Were you under 18 yo when these things started happening?
Some cases of hospitalization in mental hospitals are indeed from kundalini awakening.I see.
What's the official diagnosis from the doctors? Did they diagnose you as schizophrenic? I read that some researchers believe that up to 20% of patients admitted in mental facilities for schizophrenia exhibit kundalini experiencer behaviors.
That's exactly what I was afraid of after Xeplion, but I recovered quite a lot, if I would guess in percentages, it was 80-85% recovery. I was able to activate kundalini again after Xeplion, and this was my last kundalini experience (Forth one).Are you now unable to practice kundalini again? Did they turn your brain to soup enough that you can no longer access that higher level of consciousness? That'd be so unfortunate.
Thank you for your kind words.You are an angel, your way of writing is so delicate. His suicide is justifiable, reasonable. I would like you to live with purpose and joy but if you prefer to die, please don't blame yourself. With all the love I have to offer, thank you for sharing your story.![]()
By your own admission, your kundalini practice led to some form of psychotic behaviors. But would you also say that it led to some form of enlightenment? That feeling of Oneness in the universe that many NDErs have tried to describe? I'd guess that, in your case, the positive effects outweigh the negative effects, and that's why you plan to induce another kundalini awakening.That's exactly what I was afraid of after Xeplion, but I recovered quite a lot, if I would guess in percentages, it was 80-85% recovery. I was able to activate kundalini again after Xeplion, and this was my last kundalini experience (Forth one).
Now after Clopixol, I might be able to try again, but I'll be extra careful this time.
It was a very powerful experience to say the least.By your own admission, your kundalini practice led to some form of psychotic behaviors. But would you also say that it led to some form of enlightenment? That feeling of Oneness in the universe that many NDErs have tried to describe? I'd guess that, in your case, the positive effects outweigh the negative effects, and that's why you plan to induce another kundalini awakening.
What would you say induced the negative effects?
I have no idea who was that entity, probably a dead person from my area, if I had to guess ofc.Sounds demonic to me. That was one of the warnings about forcing the energy. Hopefully a projection of your subconscious, as it fits the M.O of the dream terror energised by that state, and not an astral entity with that energy. If the latter is true, I really hope you know what you're doing.
Hey UnluckyYogi. I've also been injected with Xeplion multiple times a few months ago, and I'm a lifeless husk. Can't bear living any more like this. But it's hard to actually have the courage to ctb. The feeling of brain damage and having no emotions, anhedonia, is killing me and driving me crazy.Hello everyone,
I would like to introduce myself here.
Up until recently, I lived my life very happily, it wasn't perfect by any means, I had my ups and downs like most people, but it was very fullfilling nevertheless.
In January 2022, my life was basically over.
I got hospitalized in a psych ward after going missing from home, which resulted in my family calling the cops on me, and they took me to a mental institution.
It all started after I discovered kundalini awakening, and I did a certain practice that got it awakened, and if you search online "kundalini psychosis" or similar terms, you'll find information about it. It is very real.
Anyway, I did this practice 4 times in my life, which caused me to get hospitalized 3 times.
Why did I try kundalini again and again if it resulted in me getting hospitalized you asking? - Simply because I was very curious, it was a blissful state of being and I believed that I won't get hospitalized again.
I won't get into farther details about what I experienced and what I've seen during the kundalini state because some of you might find it hard to believe, and it's fine.
Like I said, I was hospitalized 3 times because of kundalini awakening, but also another time (Last hospitalization) for not being able to sleep at all for 6 nights in a row.
At my first hospitalization, they gave me some antipsychotics in the form of pills, first one was Abilify, which caused me a severe restlessness, and later on they switched me into Zyprexa, which didn't cause restlessness, but I gained so much weight because of it.
Later on, after being released from the mental hospital, I recovered pretty quickly from all side effects and it didn't affect me later on, I continued with my life normally.
I couldn't help but try kundalini awakening once again, and after 2 days on it, I went missing again and it caused me to become paranoid of almost everything, and guess what? my family called the cops on me again, which got me hospitalized for the second time in January 2022, and this is where I begin my story (Remember I said my life was over at January 2022? this is why).
During my second hospitalization, I received Risperdal pills, didn't really take them, but later on, a psychiatrist told me, that they put me on something called "community treatment order", which is where you must show up regularly, once a month at the hospital, to receive antipsychotics in form of injections.
He also said that, if I want to be released, I must accept taking 2 loading doses of a very harmful drug (Didn't know it was very harmful back then) called Xeplion.
I agreed, because I thought that it won't affect me that much. I was horribly wrong.
This is where my life went downhill ever since.
Unwillingly, I had to receive more injections every month, up until July 2022, where I received my last injection because the psychiatrist was kind enough to switch me into Amisulpride pills instead, which I didn't take obviously, I had to lie to him every appointment, over and over again that I'm taking my pills (He has absolutely no way to tell) and this is how I became med free.
Now let's talk about the side effects and brain damage I got from this awful drug (Xeplion).
I lost the ability to enjoy things, lost feelings of pleasure, my concentration got very bad to the point that when I watch YouTube videos, I lose focus within seconds and can't absorb any information properly, lost my sexual function and desire completely, I hardly produced any sperm, lost my appetite almost completely, I was very restless and it was painful sitting still, my sleep quality and duration declined drastically, I lost motivation and drive, couldn't listen to music, no inspiration or sensations from being in nature or listening to music, I had almost no thoughts in my head, no imagination, lost passion and patience for my hobbies and more issues.
After being medications free on July 2022, I slowly got better and I eventually recovered enough, to the point that my life was worth living again, but it still wasn't like before, and things like joy or desire never came back, even after 14 months without Xeplion.
I got hospitalized on August 2023 again after practicing kundalini once again, which caused me very similar things like last time. I went missing from home and they called the cops on me, but this time I was lucky, because out of stupidity, I asked to get back to the hospital for some reason, and because it was voluntary, they didn't force any injections on me, they just gave me Amisulpride pill once and I got released.
Last hospitalization, happened on September 2023, shortly after the previous one, because for some reason, I couldn't fall asleep for 6 nights in a row.
I got psychotic and started to hallucinate (First time in my life I started hallucinating).
I don't know, to this day, why I couldn't fall asleep all of a sudden.
On the first night that I couldn't fall asleep, I got a severe headache, like a sharp kind of pain in my brain, and I blame the injections for it.
Anyways, I was hospitalized again and this time, they forced injections on me again, this time it was a drug called Clopixol.
Horrible drug which caused me similar effects and damage like Xeplion.
I was on it since September 2023, all the way up to April 2024, and my psychiatrist agreed again to put me on the same Amisulpride pills instead.
And here I am today, free of injections and meds, but the damage remains and there's no chance of recovering fully from so many injections.
I will never be the same and it made me suicidal, not because of depression, I don't have depression, but because of the thoughts that I won't be my healthy self like before and everything is different.
It's not depressing, but frustrating.
This is a story that reflects how harmful and poisonous these drugs are.
I know a friend that committed suicide because of the injections she received.
Life isn't easy for me these days, living empty life without joy, desire, motivation and so many more things that are missing from it.
It's like eating a cold meal without condiments or spices in it instead of a warm, tasty meal. That's my analogy.
I wish no one to be on these harmful drugs, I have so much anger towards psychiatry, but there's nothing I can do to change things unfortunately.
Take care everyone.
Hello. I'm very sorry you are going through this, as I'm going through the same thing as you are except it was LSD that messed me up. I'm still suffering the consequences of it even after two years later. Idk if it's personal to ask, but did u see a neurologist and take tests to see if you had brain damage? Because I have, yet everyone of those test came out positive with nothing wrong. I know it damaged my body and mind, and everyday is a fight. I should've been dead a long time ago. I'm willing to discuss my story with you if you'd like.Hello everyone,
I would like to introduce myself here.
Up until recently, I lived my life very happily, it wasn't perfect by any means, I had my ups and downs like most people, but it was very fullfilling nevertheless.
In January 2022, my life was basically over.
I got hospitalized in a psych ward after going missing from home, which resulted in my family calling the cops on me, and they took me to a mental institution.
It all started after I discovered kundalini awakening, and I did a certain practice that got it awakened, and if you search online "kundalini psychosis" or similar terms, you'll find information about it. It is very real.
Anyway, I did this practice 4 times in my life, which caused me to get hospitalized 3 times.
Why did I try kundalini again and again if it resulted in me getting hospitalized you asking? - Simply because I was very curious, it was a blissful state of being and I believed that I won't get hospitalized again.
I won't get into farther details about what I experienced and what I've seen during the kundalini state because some of you might find it hard to believe, and it's fine.
Like I said, I was hospitalized 3 times because of kundalini awakening, but also another time (Last hospitalization) for not being able to sleep at all for 6 nights in a row.
At my first hospitalization, they gave me some antipsychotics in the form of pills, first one was Abilify, which caused me a severe restlessness, and later on they switched me into Zyprexa, which didn't cause restlessness, but I gained so much weight because of it.
Later on, after being released from the mental hospital, I recovered pretty quickly from all side effects and it didn't affect me later on, I continued with my life normally.
I couldn't help but try kundalini awakening once again, and after 2 days on it, I went missing again and it caused me to become paranoid of almost everything, and guess what? my family called the cops on me again, which got me hospitalized for the second time in January 2022, and this is where I begin my story (Remember I said my life was over at January 2022? this is why).
During my second hospitalization, I received Risperdal pills, didn't really take them, but later on, a psychiatrist told me, that they put me on something called "community treatment order", which is where you must show up regularly, once a month at the hospital, to receive antipsychotics in form of injections.
He also said that, if I want to be released, I must accept taking 2 loading doses of a very harmful drug (Didn't know it was very harmful back then) called Xeplion.
I agreed, because I thought that it won't affect me that much. I was horribly wrong.
This is where my life went downhill ever since.
Unwillingly, I had to receive more injections every month, up until July 2022, where I received my last injection because the psychiatrist was kind enough to switch me into Amisulpride pills instead, which I didn't take obviously, I had to lie to him every appointment, over and over again that I'm taking my pills (He has absolutely no way to tell) and this is how I became med free.
Now let's talk about the side effects and brain damage I got from this awful drug (Xeplion).
I lost the ability to enjoy things, lost feelings of pleasure, my concentration got very bad to the point that when I watch YouTube videos, I lose focus within seconds and can't absorb any information properly, lost my sexual function and desire completely, I hardly produced any sperm, lost my appetite almost completely, I was very restless and it was painful sitting still, my sleep quality and duration declined drastically, I lost motivation and drive, couldn't listen to music, no inspiration or sensations from being in nature or listening to music, I had almost no thoughts in my head, no imagination, lost passion and patience for my hobbies and more issues.
After being medications free on July 2022, I slowly got better and I eventually recovered enough, to the point that my life was worth living again, but it still wasn't like before, and things like joy or desire never came back, even after 14 months without Xeplion.
I got hospitalized on August 2023 again after practicing kundalini once again, which caused me very similar things like last time. I went missing from home and they called the cops on me, but this time I was lucky, because out of stupidity, I asked to get back to the hospital for some reason, and because it was voluntary, they didn't force any injections on me, they just gave me Amisulpride pill once and I got released.
Last hospitalization, happened on September 2023, shortly after the previous one, because for some reason, I couldn't fall asleep for 6 nights in a row.
I got psychotic and started to hallucinate (First time in my life I started hallucinating).
I don't know, to this day, why I couldn't fall asleep all of a sudden.
On the first night that I couldn't fall asleep, I got a severe headache, like a sharp kind of pain in my brain, and I blame the injections for it.
Anyways, I was hospitalized again and this time, they forced injections on me again, this time it was a drug called Clopixol.
Horrible drug which caused me similar effects and damage like Xeplion.
I was on it since September 2023, all the way up to April 2024, and my psychiatrist agreed again to put me on the same Amisulpride pills instead.
And here I am today, free of injections and meds, but the damage remains and there's no chance of recovering fully from so many injections.
I will never be the same and it made me suicidal, not because of depression, I don't have depression, but because of the thoughts that I won't be my healthy self like before and everything is different.
It's not depressing, but frustrating.
This is a story that reflects how harmful and poisonous these drugs are.
I know a friend that committed suicide because of the injections she received.
Life isn't easy for me these days, living empty life without joy, desire, motivation and so many more things that are missing from it.
It's like eating a cold meal without condiments or spices in it instead of a warm, tasty meal. That's my analogy.
I wish no one to be on these harmful drugs, I have so much anger towards psychiatry, but there's nothing I can do to change things unfortunately.
Take care everyone.
Anyone here who can relate? or someone with a similar story or situation?
You're sure it was lsd? How did it mess you up?Hello. I'm very sorry you are going through this, as I'm going through the same thing as you are except it was LSD that messed me up. I'm still suffering the consequences of it even after two years later. Idk if it's personal to ask, but did u see a neurologist and take tests to see if you had brain damage? Because I have, yet everyone of those test came out positive with nothing wrong. I know it damaged my body and mind, and everyday is a fight. I should've been dead a long time ago. I'm willing to discuss my story with you if you'd like.
I healed quite a lot from this damage last year after receiving 8 Xeplion shots.Hey UnluckyYogi. I've also been injected with Xeplion multiple times a few months ago, and I'm a lifeless husk. Can't bear living any more like this. But it's hard to actually have the courage to ctb. The feeling of brain damage and having no emotions, anhedonia, is killing me and driving me crazy.
Do you think it's possible to heal from this damage?
Okay. I'm trying to be patient but it's truly awful. If I still feel the same after 2 years I will definitely ctb. Hoping for some improvement in 4-6 months time.I healed quite a lot from this damage last year after receiving 8 Xeplion shots.
It took me about 7-8 months to see significant improvements.
Please wait.
I've read quite a lot on Reddit about recovery from Xeplion/invega injections. Seems like it is possible, but I really just want my old self back.I healed quite a lot from this damage last year after receiving 8 Xeplion shots.
It took me about 7-8 months to see significant improvements.
Please wait.
Kundalini is a feminine energy that sits dormant at the base of the spine.Hi, welcome to Sanctioned Suicide :)
I'm so sorry you had to go through all that awful treament :( I can't imagine your pain. I'm just curious, what is a kundalini awakening? I tried googling it but I didn't really understand
I've read quite a lot on Reddit about recovery from Xeplion/invega injections. Seems like it is possible, but I really just want my old self back.Anyone here who can relate? or someone with a similar story or situation?
Most things came back, although not exactly as before.I've read quite a lot on Reddit about recovery from Xeplion/invega injections. Seems like it is possible, but I really just want my old self back.
You said you couldn't feel joy even after 14 months off, what improved for you? Could you laugh again and feel the effects of substances? Currently I don't even get a rush from smoking a cigarette anymore. Will try smoking weed again in a few months time to see if it has any effect.
I do believe it's possible, considering bizarre things that happened to me that shouldn't happen.Do you think / would you say that kundalini can activate self-healing powers? Sorry if this may sound weird, but this question just came to my mind.
I hope it works for you and you will be able to report about your experiences here.I'm giving kundalini a fifth trial, in order to try and heal myself fully from my brain damage. I hope it works.
Thank you!I hope it works for you and you will be able to report about your experiences here.
Good luck!
You're sure it was lsd? How did it mess you up?
it was an lsd gel tab. Long story short I wasn't able to sleep over a month and felt physically ill and had to be sent to a mental hospital because of it. I was able to work and all that afterwards but felt pieces of me that never came back. Suddenly all those symptoms came back in the beginning of 2023 and never have been able to get out of it. Headaches, sexual dysfunction, overheating etc. I have been unemployed for over a year because of it. Everyday is a battle for me and I just want out of it. Hope this answers your questionYou're sure it was lsd? How did it mess you up?
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