Introduce yourself

[thelittleprincess]

Hey. I am newly 18 (since august) and female. You can call me Charlie. I'm just tired of everything. I'm just so tired. I still feel like such a child. from america which is going to shit by the way, I have drinking issues already and pretty sure my family is sick of me. I like to draw people pregnant when they piss me off. Other than that I enjoy guitar, painting (acrylic & watercolor), writing (poetry, novels, songs), and playing video games sometimes. Although recently I haven't had enough energy for much of anything. Don't have much hope for life. Freshly broken up with and pretty sure I'm gonna die alone. That's all, have a nice day x

 

[Blue Mushroom]

Helllooooooooo
25yo male Virolainen here. Used to be depressed, constantly stressed/anxious and of course suicidal but I've been out of that hole for a while now, did take more than half a dozen years of introspection though. I still think I'll become an hero at some point in the future but It'll most likely be because I just can't be bothered to live anymore rather than from sadness, loneliness or anything like that. Speaking of loneliness, it's the only thing that still affects me from time to time since I've seemingly become unable to connect with others. If not for 2 people (an egoistic swede and a perverted kazakh) who I share a few sentences (and even more rarely play games with) here and there, I'd have no one but my parents that I'd talk to nowadays.

Anyways, I spend most of my free time indulging in different forms of escapism (mainly fantasizing/worldbuilding while listening to music in bed, vidya and watching shows/anime/content in general) and researching different topics though I also have an interest in the outdoors (mainly hiking, camping and urban exploring). Aside from all that I also like to cook, bake and brew (beer mainly). Also I'm currently in the process of learning leather working, gamedev and guitar (acoustic). Also also really into Pathfinder 1e, both it's world and system

Quite aimless in life so I just try and enjoy however much of it I can!

 

[Gangrel]

Helllooooooooo
25yo male Virolainen here. Used to be depressed, constantly stressed/anxious and of course suicidal but I've been out of that hole for a while now, did take more than half a dozen years of introspection though. I still think I'll become an hero at some point in the future but It'll most likely be because I just can't be bothered to live anymore rather than from sadness, loneliness or anything like that. Speaking of loneliness, it's the only thing that still affects me from time to time since I've seemingly become unable to connect with others. If not for 2 people (an egoistic swede and a perverted kazakh) who I share a few sentences (and even more rarely play games with) here and there, I'd have no one but my parents that I'd talk to nowadays.

Anyways, I spend most of my free time indulging in different forms of escapism (mainly fantasizing/worldbuilding while listening to music in bed, vidya and watching shows/anime/content in general) and researching different topics though I also have an interest in the outdoors (mainly hiking, camping and urban exploring). Aside from all that I also like to cook, bake and brew (beer mainly). Also I'm currently in the process of learning leather working, gamedev and guitar (acoustic). Also also really into Pathfinder 1e, both it's world and system

Quite aimless in life so I just try and enjoy however much of it I can!

Welcome friend, i see that you are no longer depressed, why are you here? not that you can't be, just asking

 

[Unlucky777]

Hello I'm fairly new here. I'm switching back and forth between wanting to go and wanting to stay but more leaning towards staying. Things have gotten better and are looking up.

I like listening to music, making music, playing chess and doing crossword puzzles, hiking, running.

 

[mimimisaki]

Hey everyone! 20 year old female here. Have been in and out of psychiatrists since my first attempt at 14, and ran through three of them until someone finally gave me a fucking diagnosis (melancholic MDD). Wasted all my teenage years just dealing with mental illness, always looking forward to college cause I somehow thought that would make things better. Spoiler alert: it didn't. Now instead of being a depressed highschooler, I'm a depressed medicine student trying not to throw myself off a fucking bridge :)

My main interests are music (HUGE MUSIC NERD!) and anime.
Nice to meet you all

 

[Unlucky777]

Hey everyone! 20 year old female here. Have been in and out of psychiatrists since my first attempt at 14, and ran through three of them until someone finally gave me a fucking diagnosis (melancholic MDD). Wasted all my teenage years just dealing with mental illness, always looking forward to college cause I somehow thought that would make things better. Spoiler alert: it didn't. Now instead of being a depressed highschooler, I'm a depressed medicine student trying not to throw myself off a fucking bridge :)

My main interests are music (HUGE MUSIC NERD!) and anime.
Nice to meet you all

Welcome to SaSu ! I'm in to music also, currently studying it.

 

[mimimisaki]

Welcome to SaSu ! I'm in to music also, currently studying it.

Omg rly??? That's awesome! I also have a couple friends studying it. Do you play any specific instrument?

 

[justanotherbody]

I'll throw mine in here, I guess.
I'm a 34 year old male. I draw, paint, play guitar, cook, bake, 3D model and animate, program, make video games, and write.

I've suffered from depression and severe anxiety since my teen years. Potentially undiagnosed autistic, absolute Misophoniac.
I was with a woman for 15 years, married for 9. We have two kids. March 2024, I discovered she'd had an affair.

I was willing to work through it with her. And things seemed to be going well. Four months later, I found out she never ended her affair when I came home to her in flagrante. I made an impulsive 2000+ mile road trip at 1 in the morning following that. I spent a week on the east coast of the US, working through things remote with my wife.

The night before I was supposed to leave for home, she told me not to bother. That she didn't want to see me and doesn't want me to come home. So I drove to a gun range and put a gun in my mouth. Other patrons intervened, police were called, I was taken to a hospital. Then I left there and checked into a crisis stabilization unit. Came home a week later and filed for divorce.

Been struggling with PTSD, grief, and attachment trauma with new relationships since.

 

[A_Spartan_Dead]

I think this is the right place...here goes:

Hello.
I'm 45 y.o. (soon to be 46) man that came to Australia when I was 11. It used to be great but now has become one of the most unaffordable places in the world.
I've done engineering, but have had interests in philosophy, gaming, writing/reading fiction, anime, d&d, mtg, comics, poker and probably a few others.
Life has unfortunately turned on me and fast fading. I've been caring for my mother with (now) stg4 cancer. When she passes I've been told I'll be getting kicked out from the public housing house we've lived in for 30 years, leaving me homeless with nowhere to go. I will have to throw out all the things my carpenter grandfather made for us (beds, etc) and spend any money I've saved doing it. I recently had to put down my boy cats (in pic) and give away their sisters due to the stupid Australia-wide city new council laws.
I'm unable to find a job due to the long absence from the workplace, and the high unemployment; media are not accurate.
My new doctor (about 3 years) isn't very good and simply tried to give me serotonin treatment, he doesn't seem to care. Suffering from undiagnosed autism, trauma, and anxiety with depression.

 

[OnceTheHappiestMan]

I've been some days around here but I haven't introduced myself properly.

45yo male. Been fantasizing with death since a child and dealing with depression since my late teens. It's been very intermittent, mixing years of good life with other of dark fall. Had a failed ctb attempt in my mid twenties due to my ignorance on methods. Some months ago I had a relapse and discovered this site looking for information to ensure that I don't fail again. But except when I'm at the deepest of my desperation I know I won't do it while my parents are alive so I suppose I'll be around for a while.

Something about me, among other things I like to collect old books and reading them, movies and playing (and sometimes making) video games.

 

[capitaldrunk]

Hi everyone! 21 year old male. I've been reading through many threads over the past few days after finding this website. I'm a little taken aback. Such resonance, catharsis. The free expression of feelings, situations, knowledge. The affinity. And all the kind words. I'm hoping to meet some of you, to find a chair in this community.

I've only recently realised how depression has bled through my younger years. I always thought it was just temperament, personality. There was an expectation that life would open up after high school, that the weight would be lifted. But how far liveliness can tumble.
I've been lucky to travel overseas, to live in the big bad Capital with a girl I loved dearly. But darkness of heart has never left my side. Now good days are few and sparse, bad days are impossibly low. And it's been a long low. People around me seem to think willpower can push a person through anything. But sometimes a person has hardly the strength to breathe. As of late, to ctb has felt like the only path. Ironically, reading through posts here has renewed some strength - Hello, fellow reincarnation-fearing comrades - If it weren't for family, this would be an easier decision. Still, I want to feel in control. I'm planning on buying some potassium nitrite and putting together a protocol. Come what may.

Undiagnosed bipolar two, OCD. Utopian melancholic. Software developer by day, music and film devotee at the midnight hour. Cambodian golden age rock is my fortress, Ros Serey Sothea is my queen. And much love for Teresa Teng, Joe Cocker, Ornella Vanoni, aand a hundred others.

Wishing peace to you all

 

[lumene]

hellooo ! 21 year old female from wales here. i've attempted twice within the last two years and struggled with various feelings of intense anxiety and periods of psychosis since i was a teenager, i'm not diagnosed with anything yet and am not really sure what's up but ive been getting support and have been medicated since a few months ago so i'm hoping to figure something out soon enough. its been suspected by counsellors that i have bpd or bipolar and im on the waiting list for an autism diagnosis. i tend to flip a lot on how i feel abt this stuff, whether i want to recover or not and whether i want to be happy and fulfilled or just comfortable wallowing to avoid the anxiety. this site seems pretty perfect for letting me explore this stuff.

my main interest is music. i can make music although my mental health has gotten in the way of me finishing anything as of yet, mostly i'm just interested in learning as much about music as i can. this applies to most artforms, i'm trying to learn about cinema and literature too. i tend to gravitate towards experimental music and 90s-00s electronic music. i honestly dont do much else at the moment, my ambitions are much greater than i can keep up with. i'd like to make a film some day, i'd like to learn piano, i'd like to learn to program better, i'd like to read more. there's a lot i'd like to do if i had the focus and willpower and that's the main reason i'd like to recover. at the moment i just tend to listen to a lot of music and watch a load of movies to keep distracted.

what i've already seen of this site has made me feel hopeful and comforted. i'm glad somewhere like this exists, i wish everyone the best, it's lovely to meet you all.

 

[leangenerator]

Hello!! Call me T :-3
I'm trying my best to stay. Thought this would be a good place to vent without being censored.

I like drawing, metal/dnb, rhythm games (and games in general…), and more that i cant remember >_<

Nice to meet you all!

hellooo ! 21 year old female from wales here. i've attempted twice within the last two years and struggled with various feelings of intense anxiety and periods of psychosis since i was a teenager, i'm not diagnosed with anything yet and am not really sure what's up but ive been getting support and have been medicated since a few months ago so i'm hoping to figure something out soon enough. its been suspected by counsellors that i have bpd or bipolar and im on the waiting list for an autism diagnosis. i tend to flip a lot on how i feel abt this stuff, whether i want to recover or not and whether i want to be happy and fulfilled or just comfortable wallowing to avoid the anxiety. this site seems pretty perfect for letting me explore this stuff.

my main interest is music. i can make music although my mental health has gotten in the way of me finishing anything as of yet, mostly i'm just interested in learning as much about music as i can. this applies to most artforms, i'm trying to learn about cinema and literature too. i tend to gravitate towards experimental music and 90s-00s electronic music. i honestly dont do much else at the moment, my ambitions are much greater than i can keep up with. i'd like to make a film some day, i'd like to learn piano, i'd like to learn to program better, i'd like to read more. there's a lot i'd like to do if i had the focus and willpower and that's the main reason i'd like to recover. at the moment i just tend to listen to a lot of music and watch a load of movies to keep distracted.

what i've already seen of this site has made me feel hopeful and comforted. i'm glad somewhere like this exists, i wish everyone the best, it's lovely to meet you all.

Good luck with everything!!! Id love to be moots hehe

 

[amor.dor]

Hello
I am from Brazil/Argentina, I am 29 years old. I like to write short stories and aphorisms, I like to play the guitar, I rarely play games on the computer, I travel a lot... and read various types of literature. I particularly like Greek and Chinese philosophy... I think that sums me up, I suppose.

 

[No_Body]

Hello I am Ear, used to go by MaggotBrain or some other dumb edgelord name

i'm 28 years old from the UK

i've been on this website since i was 23 years old, i think i'm now at that stage in my life where im considering this forum more seriously

i have nothing going in my life, im social recluse, stuck in my own little fantasies and dreams. i like video games, watching youtube videos, rotting in my bed

my life is ass

 

[descending]

Hi, I'm an early 40s male from the UK and born to Asian parents - need I say more? I've had suicidal thoughts since I was about 12 but have been overwhelmed for the past 18 months or so balancing full-time employment, my own marriage and caregiving for my parents in their 80s with declining health. Every day is a gigantic slog and I feel perpetually tired of it all. I like to play video games and listen to/make music.

 

[Heraskov]

Hi, I'm Heraskov. Despite the username, I'm not Russian or any other flavor of Slav, but I think the name sounds pleasant, so I decided to adopt it. To list some details, I reside in America, I'm a religious person (Eastern Orthodox Christian, OCA), and in my free time, I bake things for my friends and family, I listen primarily to folk and rap music (I enjoy NBA Youngboy's albums a lot), I love to write, and I like to play a variety of video games, both alone and with my friends. I'm in my last semester of high school and turned eighteen a few months ago. I'm not currently suicidal, but the topic of suicide certainly fascinates me, and I'd love to support and express love to folks if they ever need help talking about or recovering from the harsh troubles of our existence. May good fortune reach you all.