Intro Ramble/The Topic of Isolation Vs. Ostracism

[Unending]

Hello everyone and anyone. I'd like to preface this by first saying that I am happy to have found an online community where I don't have to feel like efforts of speaking my mind on the matter of suicidality proves futile/damaging. Second, I would like to apologize in advanced if this isn't the appropriate forum section to post this in but decided to post to suicide discussion since it feels more natural interacting here rather than recovery. I spend a lot of time doing something that falls between pondering and ruminating, and have progressively developed further thoughts on isolation's generally accepted role as being detrimental. I personally feel like there should be a distinction between isolation that is sought out and that which is imposed onto someone. I feel confident in saying that some of the most peaceful times that I can think of were in isolation or something close to it. On the contrary, some of my worst times were during experiences that some would call isolation, but I would call a symptom of ostracism, rejection, emotional issues, etc (conciously hiding from the world due to fear and terror). I'm trying to prolong things as much as possible, if only for my parent's sake, despite feeling deep down that it's only fair to leave the world without their consent if I was born without MY consent. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this, but mainly just wanted to make an introduction post and share some thoughts/see if anyone can relate to the feeling that isolation has in fact helped them rather than harmed them. Thanks for reading.

 

[Little T]

Hello,
I understand what you're saying, this is a tolerant, safe space to share your deepest darkest thoughts and feelings without judgement or fear.
Welcome

 

[jodes2]

Welcome to SS! Sorry you're here

I isolate by choice, because I hate small talk. Especially with neighbours when I just want to get out/home and get on with things like SS. Rejection sucks. It's why I hate Reddit, I get downvoted a lot.

 

[FuneralCry]

I always personally see it as being for the best to stay away from people. People can just create more suffering and can be tiring. I've always preferred to be alone and I personally don't see isolation as being harmful, at least in my case.