hey, i will be posting here i think about my thoughts and stuff, but first some info and intro to me and some life events
i'm a man in my 20's. i live in norway and study. a wanna be musician turned teacher. i have some songs out (none of them are good). i play alot of diffrent instruments and sing. (sorry for my terrible english btw). i have a girlfriend thats older then me, i love her alot, and i know she loves me to. you will see later why i'm abit scared for falling so hard in love that i have.
my life as a whole has been ups and downs. mainly downs when i think of it. i cut myself alot at the ripe age of 14-16. my moms reaction to that was chasing me around the house with a knife. something that sits in me to this day for obvius reasons. i have struggled alot with my mental health and alcoholism. from the age of like 13? i drank every day untill i was 20. 7 years of hard liver damage. something my now gf helped me out of. recovering now. i had some girlfriends in my late teen years, but most of them ended up cheating on me or using me for emotional support when their «one true love» didnt give them attention. wich is why i'm scared that i have fallen to hard for my now gf.
i have considered to CTB multiple times, but never did. i found this forum some years ago, but just now decided to make an account. i'm not sure if i will do it, but i dont see much of a future other them being with my gf, like no carrer path, no ambition. the only thing holding me to this world is her.
and i think that should wrap this up :)
i'm a man in my 20's. i live in norway and study. a wanna be musician turned teacher. i have some songs out (none of them are good). i play alot of diffrent instruments and sing. (sorry for my terrible english btw). i have a girlfriend thats older then me, i love her alot, and i know she loves me to. you will see later why i'm abit scared for falling so hard in love that i have.
my life as a whole has been ups and downs. mainly downs when i think of it. i cut myself alot at the ripe age of 14-16. my moms reaction to that was chasing me around the house with a knife. something that sits in me to this day for obvius reasons. i have struggled alot with my mental health and alcoholism. from the age of like 13? i drank every day untill i was 20. 7 years of hard liver damage. something my now gf helped me out of. recovering now. i had some girlfriends in my late teen years, but most of them ended up cheating on me or using me for emotional support when their «one true love» didnt give them attention. wich is why i'm scared that i have fallen to hard for my now gf.
i have considered to CTB multiple times, but never did. i found this forum some years ago, but just now decided to make an account. i'm not sure if i will do it, but i dont see much of a future other them being with my gf, like no carrer path, no ambition. the only thing holding me to this world is her.
and i think that should wrap this up :)
