LittleWrenBird
Why can't I heal?
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5
So this story begins between my and my significant other. I've been with them for five years. In that span I've broken apart multiple times from my PTSD they caused me by OD'ing on an illegal substance not once, but twice. Theyve then continued to sell that illegal substance to make money in their community... I dealt with that for 3+ years.
A few months ago ive managed to buy my own house and space away from that community that constantly triggered me.I'm writing this from my bedside with them in the next room over. They've known ive been suicidal from me telling them. They just never handled it in a way that's been... Supportive in the way I need. They've been saying things like "Oh its just this, get over it." "It's been 5 years, why are you still struggling?" Things like that, pushing me to get over it when I just can't... It's gotten to the point where I constantly feel numb or have a really bad sinking feeling in my gut..
I'm just kinda looking for a way out or even advice or something similar..
A few months ago ive managed to buy my own house and space away from that community that constantly triggered me.I'm writing this from my bedside with them in the next room over. They've known ive been suicidal from me telling them. They just never handled it in a way that's been... Supportive in the way I need. They've been saying things like "Oh its just this, get over it." "It's been 5 years, why are you still struggling?" Things like that, pushing me to get over it when I just can't... It's gotten to the point where I constantly feel numb or have a really bad sinking feeling in my gut..
I'm just kinda looking for a way out or even advice or something similar..
