hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,231
ashamed am I, of the life I have lived
no moments was i able to enjoy, nothing
to take with me. My last moments here are
to be spent, loneliness stopped being my friend. I wonder if i am my friend or just another enemy, I want to give peace to myself… why does that feels wrong? my existence was short, I couldn't find any joy. The more i think, the more unclear everything becomes. Sometimes, more than what I would want, a bunch of thoughts start to fill my mind, my anxiety comes to the door to remind me everything i have done wrong, or every wrong that has been done to me. In an instant I could feel poisonous, then I feel like I am not. Sometimes I am clear into why, other times I just lose the way. I know, everything is insignificant… we are meant to be forgotten after we leave, what's the purpose of all of this? None. Argh, i want to be gone. I can't be a coward all my life like i have been all this time. I must gather my thoughts, but i dont even know where i am standing. This will be the end of me. I wonder when will be my end, hopefully is near .
no moments was i able to enjoy, nothing
to take with me. My last moments here are
to be spent, loneliness stopped being my friend. I wonder if i am my friend or just another enemy, I want to give peace to myself… why does that feels wrong? my existence was short, I couldn't find any joy. The more i think, the more unclear everything becomes. Sometimes, more than what I would want, a bunch of thoughts start to fill my mind, my anxiety comes to the door to remind me everything i have done wrong, or every wrong that has been done to me. In an instant I could feel poisonous, then I feel like I am not. Sometimes I am clear into why, other times I just lose the way. I know, everything is insignificant… we are meant to be forgotten after we leave, what's the purpose of all of this? None. Argh, i want to be gone. I can't be a coward all my life like i have been all this time. I must gather my thoughts, but i dont even know where i am standing. This will be the end of me. I wonder when will be my end, hopefully is near .
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