Discussion Increased Suicidal Thoughts And The Holidays

[Jean4]

This may be just me, but during the holidays, my suicidal ideations increase a million times over. Being alone, and having no friends and family when society says this is family time.

I know my cycle of this happening, and it is happening earlier this year. The increased suicidal feelings are coming. I recently had a failed attempt (OD'd, was found by my super, hospitalized ICU then psych ward.)

Do any of you get worse holiday time? Do any of you plan to CTB before the holidays because you just don't want to live through them again?

If this does happen to you, and you do not want to CTB and stick around, what do you do to get through this?

I am coming off a suicide attempt. This is a very bad time of year with my ideations. I want to stick around. I have my cat Milo, and I want to live for him. However, those feelings get really strong around the holidays.....

 

[Stan]

I know exactly what you mean. I used to have fond memories of holidays. For the past 8 years they have been nearly torture for me. I'm going early December, not because of them, but it helps not having to go through another one.

 

[Jean4]

I know exactly what you mean. I used to have fond memories of holidays. For the past 8 years they have been nearly torture for me. I'm going early December, not because of them, but it helps not having to go through another one.

Ah. I do like your posts Stan. Please come here to say goodbye to you. I am also glad you understand.

 

[Stan]

Thank you Jean.

My problems start in November when you see decorations come up and TV adverts relating to Christmas appear. So wholesome and happy, families sharing good times. In reality, this is also a problem for those who do not suffer MH issues. People who are just lonely. It's an absolute bastard of a time of year.

 

[Jean4]

Thank you Jean.

My problems start in November when you see decorations come up and TV adverts relating to Christmas appear. So wholesome and happy, families sharing good times. In reality, this is also a problem for those who do not suffer MH issues. People who are just lonely. It's an absolute bastard of a time of year.

I understand. I'm 51 years old, no family or friends. Holiday depression happens to all.

 

[Stan]

I understand. I'm 51 years old, no family or friends. Holiday depression happens to all.

We are the same age my friend

 

[Jean4]

We are the same age my friend

I met someone who made it as long as I did. It is not easy being totally alone.

 

[Empty Smile]

I think the holidays should be banned. It's not family time like it used to be. Now it's all greed and worthless. I hate the holidays, and nothing makes me want to hang myself from someone's xmas tree more than xmas.

 

[Jean4]

I think the holidays should be banned. It's not family time like it used to be. Now it's all greed and worthless. I hate the holidays, and nothing makes me want to hang myself from someone's xmas tree more than xmas.

Tell it like it is. It's one big money making machine.

 

[SinisterKid]

Is it ok for a old timer to join you young guns in lamenting the late, great holiday rip off that once was Christmas?

I dont usually find anything is any better or worse at a particular time of year. Depression doesn't seem to give a shit about seasons for me. When I found this place I was probably at my lowest point since my first attempt and I love summer. But this one was a bad one, just a lot of crap happened all at once.

 

[Stan]

Is it ok for a old timer to join you young guns in lamenting the late, great holiday rip off that once was Christmas?

all are welcome to the pity party - it's a bring your own misery bottle though

 

[Empty Smile]

Is it ok for a old timer to join you young guns in lamenting the late, great holiday rip off that once was Christmas?

I dont usually find anything is any better or worse at a particular time of year. Depression doesn't seem to give a shit about seasons for me. When I found this place I was probably at my lowest point since my first attempt and I love summer. But this one was a bad one, just a lot of crap happened all at once.

Old timer? Hell I'm only a couple years younger.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

This may be just me, but during the holidays, my suicidal ideations increase a million times over. Being alone, and having no friends and family when society says this is family time.

I know my cycle of this happening, and it is happening earlier this year. The increased suicidal feelings are coming. I recently had a failed attempt (OD'd, was found by my super, hospitalized ICU then psych ward.)

Do any of you get worse holiday time? Do any of you plan to CTB before the holidays because you just don't want to live through them again?

If this does happen to you, and you do not want to CTB and stick around, what do you do to get through this?

I am coming off a suicide attempt. This is a very bad time of year with my ideations. I want to stick around. I have my cat Milo, and I want to live for him. However, those feelings get really strong around the holidays.....

yes i feel the same way in weekends and holidays. most the saturdays. i wish i could die so quick and painful

 

[Jean4]

Is it ok for a old timer to join you young guns in lamenting the late, great holiday rip off that once was Christmas?

I dont usually find anything is any better or worse at a particular time of year. Depression doesn't seem to give a shit about seasons for me. When I found this place I was probably at my lowest point since my first attempt and I love summer. But this one was a bad one, just a lot of crap happened all at once.

The more the merrier! Now I can get through Halloween without being alone ;)

 

[Empty Smile]

all are welcome to the pity party - it's a bring your own misery bottle though

I got my misery bottle out. It's the cheap drunks wine, MD 20/20... I'm feeling rather cheap tonight.

The more the merrier! Now I can get through Halloween without being alone ;)

Will you be handing out candy laced with fentynal?

 

[Jean4]

I got my misery bottle out. It's the cheap drunks wine, MD 20/20... I'm feeling rather cheap tonight.

Will you be handing out candy laced with fentynal?

If I had Fentynal do you think I would share? ;)

 

[Empty Smile]

If I had Fentynal do you think I would share? ;)

Well I would certainly hope so!

 

[Jean4]

Well I would certainly hope so!

Well... Maybe just for you ;)

 

[Empty Smile]

Well... Maybe just for you ;)

Now you're my new favorite friend!!

 

[Stan]

Now you're my new favorite friend!!

I've got popcorn!

 

[Jean4]

I've got popcorn!

Extra butter?

 

[Stan]

Extra butter?

I have all types! Including a very nice chocolate covered popcorn

 

[Jean4]

I have all types! Including a very nice chocolate covered popcorn

Stan, if you have popcorn, you have a new best friend ;)

 

[clownangel]

Halloween is usually a big one for me where my outlook starts to dip more (am I imagining that it's getting as money based as Christmas? I used to love it cuz it's like, the anti Christmas, no family if you don't want, just candy and dumb movies!) but the whole tiny-family-no-friends-super-drained bit definitely sucks the fun out of November and December.

 

[Empty Smile]

I've got popcorn!

But you don't share if I remember correctly...

Stan, if you have popcorn, you have a new best friend ;)

Well in that case, I retract my statement of you being my new favorite friend...

 

[Jean4]

But you don't share if I remember correctly... ☹☹☹

Well in that case, I retract my statement of you being my new favorite friend...

Sorry. Popcorn wins out every time!

 

[Stan]

But you don't share if I remember correctly... ☹☹☹

I will make an exception for holiday periods.

 

[Jean4]

I will make an exception for holiday periods.
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I'm telling you Stan. We are going to be best friends!

 

[Empty Smile]

Sorry. Popcorn wins out every time!

Bleh... I have fudgesicles!

 

[Jean4]

Bleh... I have fudgesicles!

Sugar free or regular?