I never understood this world
I never understood its people
I never learned the important skills necessary to survive in this world and reach great thing
I never had a happy family but instead one that destroyed me that took away any chance to make this life a good one
I never had stability
I never had real friendships
I never had any chapter in life where I could say "yeah here I felt great"
I am so extremely glad and thankful and even proud to myself that even though I am so extremely damaged after lots of horrible moments in life I did find a method to kill myself. With all the horrible mental illnesses I still managed to test my set up, I was able to buy a rope and I learned my knots.
I feel like death is really smiling at me. It tells me:"damn why are you still alive?! Are you so stupid?! How much more pain should life give you until you idiot finally realize that I am your only friend that I waited for you all the time. I am the only thing that will give eternal freedom! Finally do the only logical thing. Hang yourself!"
I never understood its people
I never learned the important skills necessary to survive in this world and reach great thing
I never had a happy family but instead one that destroyed me that took away any chance to make this life a good one
I never had stability
I never had real friendships
I never had any chapter in life where I could say "yeah here I felt great"
I am so extremely glad and thankful and even proud to myself that even though I am so extremely damaged after lots of horrible moments in life I did find a method to kill myself. With all the horrible mental illnesses I still managed to test my set up, I was able to buy a rope and I learned my knots.
I feel like death is really smiling at me. It tells me:"damn why are you still alive?! Are you so stupid?! How much more pain should life give you until you idiot finally realize that I am your only friend that I waited for you all the time. I am the only thing that will give eternal freedom! Finally do the only logical thing. Hang yourself!"
