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[elizabethisworthless]

Literally in tears no one cares in this world I was crying my mum slapped me told me to shut up for crying told me I'm a burden there's nothing else she can do and that I really should go to stay in my room and kill myself end me I can't live anymorethis hurts no one cares at all they don't

 

[Heavy]

It's the sad truth of life. Nobody gives a fuck about you. One true thing is that most people want to see you dead (you as in me and you and everybody else). That's the only "care" people have.

 

[maru.]

Literally in tears no one cares in this world I was crying my mum slapped me told me to shut up for crying told me I'm a burden there's nothing else she can do and that I really should go to stay in my room and kill myself end me I can't live anymorethis hurts no one cares at all they don't

Seems like you have an abusive mother.

First things first, she can go fuck herself, you didn't ask to be born, she chose that, it's ok for people to have kids i think, but after taking that decision, of giving birth to you, she has no right to tell you that you're a burden or to give up on you, and she certainly doesn't have the right to slap you for daring to be miserable.

I don't know what I can say or do to help, it sounds like you're in a terrible situation, but please, just understand this: It's not your fault.

 

[Deleted member 19276]

Seems like a very abusive mother, just like @maru. said.
Really sorry that all this insanity is happening to you too.
You are not a burden, please don't let her turn your mind on you like that or guilt trip you. You have not done anything wrong.

 

[Fml]

I'm so sorry your Mum was so heartless to say those mean things to you and slap you when you were in need of help. If it's of any comfort to you I care and I'm sure a lot of others on here do too

 

[HappyMstake]

I'm sorry that this is happening to you. I hope you can find happiness in whatever you do. No one deserves to be abused like that.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Literally in tears no one cares in this world I was crying my mum slapped me told me to shut up for crying told me I'm a burden there's nothing else she can do and that I really should go to stay in my room and kill myself end me I can't live anymorethis hurts no one cares at all they don't

This treatment of you sounds very harsh friend and I'm so sorry for your suffering.
Quite why a mother would bring this level of both physical and emotional abuse to bear on their own child is beyond me.
If your mother is sincere in her words then I am sincerely sorry, no one should hear this, especially if they are in a dark place and seeking the light as you appear to be.
There is love for you, and even thought this is one of the darkest places their is we are here with love and light.
As a stranger on the other side of a screen there is probably nothing I can do to assuage the awful feelings in you right now, save to say that I am wishing you peace and understanding and above all love.
I really hope you mother didn't mean what she said and you can find a path to reconciliation and where ever your path leads beyond that you can find peace and kindness.
If you want to reach out I (and I'm sure many others) are here.
Love and respect
DBD

 

[JustKillBen22]

Please, if you want to talk to someone lmk.

 

[crybaby]

My mum told me every day that I should go to kill myself.

 

[KleinerWolf]

My mum told me every day that I should go to kill myself.

Then she should not have given birth to anyone.

 

[limpingtowardfreedom]

It's the sad truth of life. Nobody gives a fuck about you. One true thing is that most people want to see you dead (you as in me and you and everybody else). That's the only "care" people have.

This isn't true at all. The world might be an uncaring place, but (most) people don't want to see other people dead, even if it's for selfish reasons like not wanting to feel uncomfortable or sad about it.

Even your abusive mother probably doesn't actually want you dead, she just has no control over herself or her attitude, maybe even has mental health issues. If she were faced with the reality of it she'd probably still be miserable at what she had caused. Which is not to excuse her actions, it's just the way people are, even people who cause great harm to others.

 

[Deleted member 19276]

My mother told me that perhaps she may regret giving birth to me once... I am unsure how serious she was on that, but still, just saying it alone can bring a world of hurt.
Since it seems a lot of us have mentioned things like this on in here. Hugs for you all!

 

[elizabethisworthless]

Seems like you have an abusive mother.

First things first, she can go fuck herself, you didn't ask to be born, she chose that, it's ok for people to have kids i think, but after taking that decision, of giving birth to you, she has no right to tell you that you're a burden or to give up on you, and she certainly doesn't have the right to slap you for daring to be miserable.

I don't know what I can say or do to help, it sounds like you're in a terrible situation, but please, just understand this: It's not your fault.

Really don't want to be here it is my fault simply for just existing wish I was never born this life is hell its only gotten worse again today

Really don't want to be here it is my fault simply for just existing wish I was never born this life is hell its only gotten worse again today

I wish there was a choice whether you could decide whether to be born or not

 

[Diceroller90]

its only gotten worse again today

Do you want to talk about it?

 

[maru.]

Really don't want to be here

I understand, all of us here feel like this to a certain extent i think, we know what you're feeling right now, and it's fine, we're here to help in any way we can.

it is my fault simply for just existing

Like i've mentioned before, you didn't ask for it, you didn't choose, it was chosen for you, it's literally impossible to blame you for existing or anything like that.

wish I was never born this life is hell

Again, not much i can say to help, i'm sorry, we all here feel like this too, and it's terrible, but at least the people here in this community have each other.

its only gotten worse again today

If you'd like to vent about it, feel free, we want to help.

I wish there was a choice whether you could decide whether to be born or not

Yeah, especially if we could be given spoilers of what would happen, so we could make a choice based on something.
Perhaps we had the choice and we just don't remember, i don't know, but if it's the case, i imagine most of us would regret it.
Still, like i've said, we're here if you need someone to talk to.

 

[elizabethisworthless]

Seems like a very abusive mother, just like @maru. said.
Really sorry that all this insanity is happening to you too.
You are not a burden, please don't let her turn your mind on you like that or guilt trip you. You have not done anything wrong.

Everyone thinks I'm a burden they'll be happy when I'm dead I am the problem and I'm worthless like everyone keeps telling me so

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I'm sorry you're going through all this bs. We're all here to talk to you when you need it. As much as I respect your choice I'd hate to see you pushed towards suicide because of a stressful home situation. I believe in you chief.

 

[elizabethisworthless]

I'm sorry you're going through all this bs. We're all here to talk to you when you need it. As much as I respect your choice I'd hate to see you pushed towards suicide because of a stressful home situation. I believe in you chief.

Can't wait until I end my life anyway it's not just because of my family I just don't want to live at all there's a lot in my life that makes me unhappy

 

[limpingtowardfreedom]

Everyone thinks I'm a burden they'll be happy when I'm dead I am the problem and I'm worthless like everyone keeps telling me so

It might feel this way, but "everyone" does not think this, not at all.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Can't wait until I end my life anyway it's not just because of my family I just don't want to live at all there's a lot in my life that makes me unhappy

Damn bro that's rough, life kinda sucks at times. I do hope you get better somehow though, would be pretty cool if you did.

 

[elizabethisworthless]

everyone in my family does they literally told me so

Damn bro that's rough, life kinda sucks at times. I do hope you get better somehow though, would be pretty cool if you did.

I know it sucks it won't get better anyway any hope I had is gone in life. Everywhere I hear stay positive stay strong I can't do it anymore some people have simply had enough and this life is shit anyway lol I will never be okay

 

[KleinerWolf]

everyone in my family does they literally told me so

I know it sucks it won't get better anyway any hope I had is gone in life. Everywhere I hear stay positive stay strong I can't do it anymore some people have simply had enough and this life is shit anyway lol I will never be okay

I too have Ingrained beliefs about myself.
It's easy for these things to get to us if we fall for it.

 

[elizabethisworthless]

I too have Ingrained beliefs about myself.
It's easy for these things to get to us if we fall for it.
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But I'm not lying I'm seeing things for what they really are the only lie I'd be telling myself is things are going to get better when surely there not that would be more of a lie right?

I too have Ingrained beliefs about myself.
It's easy for these things to get to us if we fall for it.
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I don't know I just feel so alone I'm sorry

I too have Ingrained beliefs about myself.
It's easy for these things to get to us if we fall for it.
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Damn bro that's rough, life kinda sucks at times. I do hope you get better somehow though, would be pretty cool if you did.

thanks I wish it did

Do you want to talk about it?

I don't know I suck at explaining things all I'd be doing is whining anyway :/

 

[Deleted member 17949]

everyone in my family does they literally told me so

I know it sucks it won't get better anyway any hope I had is gone in life. Everywhere I hear stay positive stay strong I can't do it anymore some people have simply had enough and this life is shit anyway lol I will never be okay

I get you really, regardless of what might happen in the future we all have our energy limits and we can't put up with pain forever. You at least got any opportunity to try meds or therapy to see if that makes a difference? My plan was to see if that changes anything then ctb if it doesn't.

 

[KleinerWolf]

But I'm not lying I'm seeing things for what they really are the only lie I'd be telling myself is things are going to get better when surely there not that would be more of a lie right?

I don't know I just feel so alone I'm sorry

Things are tough. It's what led us to have suicidal ideation.
Because we do not have immediate solution to the problems,
it triggers caveman fight/flight response, suicidal ideation part of the second scenario.

others are not helping and even try to bring us down by saying these hurtful things. I mean why should we listen to them? I encourage you to dismiss what they say because these things are toxic and only bring us further down the spiral.

we have been in some shitty situation for some time now, it's time to get out of it by changing our mindset, then we can brainstorm and think on our feet how to change the physical environment we are in.

This may sound slightly controversial but in my opinion, in terms of recovery/mental well-being in general, medication treats the symptoms, therapy guides you, (if the psychologist& psychiatrist knows what they are doing of course) but at end of the day, I think the majority of work towards recovery has to be done by ourselves. Initiatives and positive thinking goes a long way. It can be daunting at first and take some time. But have faith and one step at a time.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Literally in tears no one cares in this world I was crying my mum slapped me told me to shut up for crying told me I'm a burden there's nothing else she can do and that I really should go to stay in my room and kill myself end me I can't live anymorethis hurts no one cares at all they don't

My parents are narcissists so I understand that you feel trapped and helpless, if you wanna vent I'm happy to listen. I may not have all the answers but hopefully my own experiences could help you out. Do you get the opportunity to get out much, anytime you can get away from them might help. Even for an hour or so.

 

[KleinerWolf]

But I'm not lying I'm seeing things for what they really are the only lie I'd be telling myself is things are going to get better when surely there not that would be more of a lie right?

I don't know I just feel so alone I'm sorry


thanks I wish it did

I don't know I suck at explaining things all I'd be doing is whining anyway :/

in terms of "feeling alone" ,
everyone has problems,
it's good to talk about them,
helps us put things into perspectives, u know?

No need to apologise, because we are here to support you :)

 

[limpingtowardfreedom]

I get you really, regardless of what might happen in the future we all have our energy limits and we can't put up with pain forever. You at least got any opportunity to try meds or therapy to see if that makes a difference? My plan was to see if that changes anything then ctb if it doesn't.

I agree, I think therapy could really be helpful at gaining perspective and making sure your head is in the right place if you want to plan on catching the bus, and could provide many gains besides that maybe too

 

[Deleted member 19276]

Everyone thinks I'm a burden they'll be happy when I'm dead I am the problem and I'm worthless like everyone keeps telling me so

You are not a problem, you are a human being. You are not doing anything bad to anyone. Please, if there is something we can do, please, let us know.
It seems someone from real life on your end is causing you to be in so much pain and it hurts. :(

 

[Baguette]

Literally in tears no one cares in this world I was crying my mum slapped me told me to shut up for crying told me I'm a burden there's nothing else she can do and that I really should go to stay in my room and kill myself end me I can't live anymorethis hurts no one cares at all they don't

That's terrible, if my mum done that to me after a few times I'd slap her back, I wouldn't take that off anyone. If there's anyway for you to move out to a safer place I'd say do that but obviously it may not be possible for you.