Venting in spite of others

[starrvingstar]

i just want to die in spite of the people who have made me mad and wronged me

i know they wouldnt care or realize what they did wrong but sometimes it actually feels good to hurt the people who might not have loved me as much as i loved them even though i just said i did not want to die since i dont want them to move on, but to leave them with the guilt they could never forget in the back of their mind.

i get so extremely mad and just want to prove i can really leave.

 

[tams]

I get that, honestly, a part of the appeal of ctb for me is to make the people who wronged me feel a bit of guilt and to questions how they treated me. I can be petty like that haha.