In pain

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I feel like crying, my life is just not working out. No matter how hard I try to force it to work out, it doesn't budge. I'm trying to have a life, but it doesn't seem possible. It's probably my autism that makes every option not doable. I already know I can't handle college, and I'm sitting at home on disability. So naturally I wanna be able to DO something even in this state, yet I don't like what I'm doing and it's not working out well. It's hopeless, and this is why I wanna kill myself now.

 

[Worndown]

Autism causes a lot of inteference with day to day life. It is not about abilities, but seems more focus and time management driven along with social and confidence issues. A large mountain to climb.
Everyone has a different "normal". Yours might not be defined yet. It takes time to find your place in this world.
Everyone has talents. What are yours?

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

Autism causes a lot of inteference with day to day life. It is not about abilities, but seems more focus and time management driven along with social and confidence issues. A large mountain to climb.
Everyone has a different "normal". Yours might not be defined yet. It takes time to find your place in this world.
Everyone has talents. What are yours?

I'm climbing a large mountain and I'm ready to jump from where I have climbed to. I can sing, and barely draw, I can also write creatively, which I've been doing, but I just don't enjoy, and that's the biggest problem because I need something to do with my life, a passion or a talent to take up. I wish Art was more of a talent for me, because I'd pursue that passionately. It's not and I don't plan on it.

 

[Worndown]

I have artistic talent, but cannot draw.
Singing is out too.
What do you write? You have a lot of options. Shakespere or Kafka, both writers but with a very different feel.

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I have artistic talent, but cannot draw.
Singing is out too.
What do you write? You have a lot of options. Shakespere or Kafka, both writers but with a very different feel.

Right now I'm doing something funky, I'm just trying to rewrite Coraline, with my own words. I do creative writing. But I have problems with plots and story structure, so I use other's and make it into my own.

The issue with writing is I do it and I find that I'm not enjoying it, I force myself, and I find myself stuck.

 

[Worndown]

You need to find your groove. A style, subject or tone. I used to do some writting in the style of Hunter S. Thompson. Add some social issues and sarcasm and it was fun. Then I got busy and stopped.
Don't stop. You read things, what entertains you?

 

[hopeless-believer]

Back in my happier days I found poetrySoup useful, they have contests that you can enter for free, and can even get prizes at times, you can post whatever format you choose, or you can go by the contest rules and format to test that creativity of yours??

Its a community too, and back in the day I enjoyed it there, very supportive and helped me improve
I can send you a link to a couple of old poems of mine, or you can browse the site??

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

You need to find your groove. A style, subject or tone. I used to do some writting in the style of Hunter S. Thompson. Add some social issues and sarcasm and it was fun. Then I got busy and stopped.
Don't stop. You read things, what entertains you?

I can't seem to find my groove at all, it just doesn't seem like it's for me, which really sucks that I can't enjoy it.
I enjoy different books like the Girl on the Train, Coraline, etc.

Back in my happier days I found poetrySoup useful, they have contests that you can enter for free, and can even get prizes at times, you can post whatever format you choose, or you can go by the contest rules and format to test that creativity of yours??

Its a community too, and back in the day I enjoyed it there, very supportive and helped me improve
I can send you a link to a couple of old poems of mine, or you can browse the site??

Oh no, sorry, I'm far too isolated to do something like that. I truly appreciate the suggestion though!

 

[Worndown]

Work on Coraline. Feel free to branch out from the book when you find an interesting item. You do not know where it will take you.