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Final Escape
I’ve been here too long
- Jul 8, 2018
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This is just sad, I'm in bed at 5:30 pm. I sat around all day practically. I did make it out of the apartment. Contemplated ctb a few times. I know what factors are exacerbating it. One mistake I made was taking some adderall the day before yesterday. Even that tiny bit of 30 mg tablet is enough to leave me paralyzed the following day because that's how fast u develop tolerance and withdrawal. 30 mg ones are really powerful like meth. Basically I was just exhausted yesterday because I didn't take more. Then today I was slightly better but still just like not feeling right. I know I should avoid stimulants because they can really fuck u up but sometimes I really just like to not feel my feelings lol!