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searchingforpeace

Experienced
Nov 26, 2022
233
I have something called functional neurological disorder. Doctors don't seem to care. I have IC SN and ordered CCS SN but I am in a panic they are getting rid of it left and right. I feel like it is a conspiracy. I feel like I am going insane.
 
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Aisley

Wizard
Mar 12, 2023
624
Anything that will be used in any numbers will get attention. Nembutal used to be kind of available, now it's like some mythical stuff of legends. It's not always in your head. Rest easy knowing you already have your out on hand, breathe it in deeply. Your fate is in your own hands, as it should be.
 
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lukas19

Specialist
Jan 17, 2023
345
I have something called functional neurological disorder. Doctors don't seem to care. I have IC SN and ordered CCS SN but I am in a panic they are getting rid of it left and right. I feel like it is a conspiracy. I feel like I am going insane.
You are lucky to have both
 
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searchingforpeace

Experienced
Nov 26, 2022
233
Is anyone from NJ? I could use some local support.
 
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Heavenbound

Specialist
Apr 11, 2023
304
@ searching for peace
I like your name.
I have health issues too, and the doctors don't seem to want to figure it out, so I can understand how you are feeling. You've already got the product, so let that worry go. I'm not in NJ but I hope that you can find someone to talk to. Best of luck.
 
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searchingforpeace

Experienced
Nov 26, 2022
233
Would anyone want to talk on the phone?
 
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searchingforpeace

Experienced
Nov 26, 2022
233
I tried clicking your profile but it won't let me.
 
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betternever2havbeen

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,118
@searchingforpeace you're not going insane, it's making me panic a bit too. I had the IC source but I didn't order it yet and now that's gone (and not really heard if ppl think it's coming back or gone for good) now I'm wishing I ordered months ago. At least you have sn, try not to worry. I just settled on sn started feeling much more happy bout CTB now I'm worried I won't even get sn at all. I hadn't worried before because ppl said it won't get too restricted because of what it's commonly used for it needs to be available but IC going down is a bummer for sure. Sorry to hear about your health problems big hugs.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,816
I think that if you already have SN in your possession then I doubt that it would be taken away as long as you don't tell people about it in real life. But anyway it sounds really awful and tiring what you are going through, I certainly hate this anti suicide society that tries to force people to suffer by restricting suicide method options, this world certainly is so hellish.
 
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redtruck1

Member
Apr 13, 2023
49
I'm not in NJ but you can always PM me if you want to chat