Cepi
It’s not a bad existence, just a bad life
- May 12, 2023
- 70
I'm in fancy hotel with my marine training camp and it's the first time in a long time I talked to people my age and genuinely felt happy. I know I look like shit but I know it could be worse and I know I'm a mess of a person but the fact people still give a crude about me. Makes me so unbelievably happy . I'm still scared out of my mind about how my life ended up here and how everything is going to be changing soon but fuck man I'd rather deal with this then be stuck at home doing nothing about with my life wanting to ctb. But now I'm actually having a purpose and duty and I know I'll kill myself eventually but man I hope I can just enjoy these beautiful days.