ambivalent_thespian
𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕒𝕥𝕙 𝕥𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕕𝕖𝕞𝕡𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟
- Oct 5, 2023
- 45
i don't know what to do. i had everything. i was doing what i loved. i had a job i loved. i was doing well in school. i had someone who cared if i came home, but wouldn't force me there if i wasn't ready.
and now im back home with my family and back to wanting to dive off a bridge just for a change in scenery.
i just fucking love how i'll get yelled at if my grades are bad yet not given a passing glance when they're good.
i'm not a fucking child, and i don't need anyone to control what i do. im a grown ass adult and i can make my own choices.
god i hope that when i do kill myself they don't bother paying for my hospital bills so i have yet another reason to eat lead.
and now im back home with my family and back to wanting to dive off a bridge just for a change in scenery.
i just fucking love how i'll get yelled at if my grades are bad yet not given a passing glance when they're good.
i'm not a fucking child, and i don't need anyone to control what i do. im a grown ass adult and i can make my own choices.
god i hope that when i do kill myself they don't bother paying for my hospital bills so i have yet another reason to eat lead.
