impatience 😭😭

[thefarter]

hii just an annoying post about how impatient i am. bro i am so sick and tired of all this crap.

i can't believe i've fr stayed hopeful for the past 4 yrs like being doxxed is a situation to actually move past and be able to continue living past? like wot..

i feel like garbage i always approach people and go in with really good intentions and i care them and they just say weird dodgy stuff and make me feel crazy and then just.. leave. like they just ghost me or whatever. after just shoving m past in my face. and they . pretend they're being so kind and understanding to me. it's so weird. i think in some ways i deserve it because i have been so evil in the past. anyway. every single day i continue living just makes my heart ache and break even more. it hurts so bad. i really want all this to be done.

it makes me so nauseous. i am so glad i've finally reached the point of essentially losing all hope? it's kind of freeing. i don't feel like i need to prove myself to anyone anymore. i don't constantly pray and hope for some kind stranger to come up to me and talk about all the sh*t they have heard about me, nor to ask me if im okay.

i am just waiting (extremely impatiently) for my sn to arrive so that i can die.

i kinda wanna get some capsules because the sn drink tastes sooooooooo ffrrrrreeaakkkjiiinngggg baaaaaad. soapy salt

 

[itsallogrenow]

I'm getting impatient too

I keep checking my tracking number for my SN, knowing full well its not going to be here for a while.

I then have to wait about 6-8 weeks for my Meto and Propranolol to arrive as I'm having to import it.

We can push through it and it'll be over soon

 

[Melophobia]

I'm also waiting for my SN and don't know where to hide it. I hope I don't screw it up, but I think I definitely will.I'm tired of waiting for this to all end.