Venting I'm Worthless And Pathetic

[Elliana Berriana]

I can't take this anymore. I pretend to be fine, even so shortly after my parents read my journal, and found out I was hurting myself and wanted to ctb. I felt better for a while, because that was when I found out that they do care about me, but whenever I feel better, I feel worse again. It's pathetic, my life is great, but I don't want to live it.
I can't handle anything. Even being surrounded by people who truly love and care about me, one nasty comment from one nasty person gets to me so easily, and I let it. I hate myself, and I'm just worthless.
I don't want to hurt people, so I can't end my life. I wish no one cared about me, I wish they hated me and wanted me to die. I deserve it, and I could actually ctb in that case. My life is so good, but I can't appreciate that, and I almost hate how great it is. I just want it to end.

 

[MrDarkness]

It seems your suffering from severe depression, many things can cause it, your could try to get in touch with mental health see if they will help you. I hope your able to find peace

 

[day]

I'm sorry this cruel and cold world has lead you to believing that.. you're anything but worthless OP and you don't deserve to suffer the way you have been. I hope you find peace no matter what you do moving forward. Best wishes OP.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it really can be so awful feeling trapped here, it must be tiring having to suffer like that. But anyway I wish you the best.