I'm trying so hard to not want to die

[CannotAnymore]

I even made this long post in the Recovery board. I'm just so tired.

I've been very open about how I feel and why I feel this way and no one cares. The truth is no one cares, they care about how they will feel during the grieving process or they care about the cost and stress about having to deal with the aftermath.. but in truth no one cares.

And I HATE when people are like oh my God you are not alone, and omg we love you... no you don't, you don't even know me. People create narratives that are such bullshit and we choose to just believe it.

Humans are awful... a few good ones out there but as a species we worship money and you have people who have so much it's unnecessary and then governments are just a joke at this point (I mean a few countries are getting it right).

I'm so tired of not getting it right. I try so hard.

 

[Shepherd's boy]

You are right, we don't know you. But what we have here is compassion. People out there know how it feels like. No one here truly loves you, it is not the right word. But we can imagine how you feel. We are going through this with you. You've left part of your soul here and we can feel it deeply. We are with you. You have compassion of ours. You can go through this. You need to find someone who will love you. Everyone here need. Check offtop section. I will post discussion about what helped me.

 

[CannotAnymore]

You realized I said something and wrote I didn't like when people say this because of this reason and you go and post that comment.

I know your intentions are good but please don't wrote the thing I hate... yes we are a community and maybe there is someone I connect with but you know nothing about me.

A post isn't going to change my situation.

 

[Shepherd's boy]

You realized I said something and wrote I didn't like when people say this because of this reason and you go and post that comment.

I know your intentions are good but please don't wrote the thing I hate... yes we are a community and maybe there is someone I connect with but you know nothing about me.

A post isn't going to change my situation.

That was truth. Nothing more.
If you want your feelings to be appreciated, appreciate feelings of others here. I'm put all my emotions in this post, but you insulted me.

You realized I said something and wrote I didn't like when people say this because of this reason and you go and post that comment.

I know your intentions are good but please don't wrote the thing I hate... yes we are a community and maybe there is someone I connect with but you know nothing about me.

A post isn't going to change my situation.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do feel like most people only care about what directly affects themselves and that is simply just the way that people are, they are selfish and disappointing. I am also tired of it all, this existence really is so cruel and often other people just make things worse.