Venting im tired

[meddle]

dont really want to talk to anyone or vent. dont even want to write a note. because im so tired of everything. and i have no words to say

 

[mortuarymary]

Are you sleeping at all?

 

[meddle]

Are you sleeping at all?

yeah. 6-7 hours per night. im on mirtazapine, it makes falling asleep very easy
i just wish i could sleep all the time and didnt have to wake up. didnt have to go outside and meet people

 

[mortuarymary]

If you don't have to do that then sleep. Fuck going outside. If needed take an extra tablet.

 

[meddle]

If you don't have to do that then sleep. Fuck going outside. If needed take an extra tablet.

i wish i could. but i have a work, where i have to be a responsible adult so i can earn money to live my stupid life
its barely bearable to be around people. i look them in their faces and all i could think about is "i want to kill myself. how do you all lucky bastards not feel that way?" or "how awkward would everyone feel if i say out loud about my thoughts"
i dont want to manipulate others. dont want them to console me. then why do i think these thoughts. hillarious

 

[Doemu]

I hope you get better