I’m thinking about ending my life this week

[A-A]

My childhood was never good but I still went on with life but with a lot of ctb attempts and failed obviously, but I am at the age where I said that if I got here and my life wasn't better I would ctb, I can't imagine my next birthday and I don't want too this world is hell and I hate it's suffocating and messed up if there is a god he surly hates my guts bc I never deserved this I have no idea what I have done to him to make my life this unbearable. I want to keep fighting for my friends and my mom bc I don't want them to be sad but I also don't want to feel this pain anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is so cruel how people suffer so much all through no fault of their own, this world truly is so hellish to me as well, I don't believe there could ever be a God, I see existence as just being meaningless suffering with no deeper reason or purpose behind it all. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish, whatever course of action you choose. You'll get no judgement or condemnation from this group.

 

[edu0z]

My childhood was never good but I still went on with life but with a lot of ctb attempts and failed obviously, but I am at the age where I said that if I got here and my life wasn't better I would ctb, I can't imagine my next birthday and I don't want too this world is hell and I hate it's suffocating and messed up if there is a god he surly hates my guts bc I never deserved this I have no idea what I have done to him to make my life this unbearable. I want to keep fighting for my friends and my mom bc I don't want them to be sad but I also don't want to feel this pain anymore.

may you find peace in your way

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Life is often so cruel and unfair. You are right if there was a god he would not make humans suffer. Whatever you decide, I wish you al the best and I hope you find peace!

 

[Werewolf.]

I used to believe that God hated me. I believed it for many years before I realized… He doesn't hate me. He just doesn't care about me. I'm far too irrelevant to be hated on by an omniscient being. The feeling sucks and no one gets it. I understand the dilemma you're in. I guess that's why I'm here too — not wanting to hurt anyone I care about. Maybe I get to fade into obscurity one day and then that's it. The right moment. Who knows, though? Time will tell.

 

[Jonaxthewise37]

Please don't kill yourself. The pain of knowing you will die is worse than the pain of living. If you change your mind please seek professional help.

 

[Unknown21]

Me too, i wanna do it asap but i still need a lot of preparations and money, good luck with whatever what u would do.