Help im stuck with nowhere to go i want to CTB

[h i]

im so stupid, i chose to live with a partner who does not take my feelings seriously and violates them on and on again. i suspect she is sociopathic ( its not right for me to diagnose) , previously she had gaslighted me for a long period of time and now even though shes stopped with that i still dont feel safe around her with my feelings and words. im in a dilemma where i dont know if she is a sociopath and i cant be certain because she has pushed me to a state where i doubt my self and my own thoughts. its all a big fog

now its hard for me to break up, because im afraid of what will happen to me and my belongings, but also i have become dependent on her financially WHILE simultaneously the rent contract is only on my name, im in such a deep pit, its terrifying. how does anyone get out of such a entanglement?

im terrified for myself, ive cried way too much and i feel like i have nowhere to go. i try to find a job but i keep getting rejected, im so stressed out, i get physical pain in my body when i cry

 

[timf]

If there are no family or friends, there are both governmental and social service organizations that might help. Sometimes asking a cop or a church secretary can be a starting point as often both know all sorts of resources that might be available.