Im struggling to ctb

[Gavalar]

I'm in a major depressive spell at the minute and I'm really wanting to ctb but struggling to go through with it.
I drove all night Friday night and my family found a suicide note. I was very close to being sectioned. I had planned to drive and jump from a height. Unfortunately I was found pulled over to the side of the road.
All weekend I've been wanting to ctb but no luck so far. It's all I've thought about to be honest. What can I do to stop my survival instinct?

 

[Nifi]

Make a good plan. It sounds like your acting on your impulses. Please try to take your time to do research and to think about the right way to ctb for you.

Best of luck