Venting im so tired

[scarletrat]

my sensory issues and ocd are so bad that im physically hurting. all i wanna do is go to the forest and hang myself but i cant do that to my friend. my whole life is just taking pills to drown out my brain. i cant do this anymore.

 

[NeoN0va]

That sucks. Hope you somehow find peace or a way out.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine that must be really dreadful, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand why you'd feel so tired. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm sorry for your pain. I hope you find peace soon

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I can relate that it sometimes turns into actual physical pain only because I have OCD too and a few years ago I had a bunch of open wounds on my hands from all the hand washing and my use of cleaning products. It's crazy how our mental health can manifest physically although I have a feeling you are referring to other physical ailments. I wish you peace.

 

[FlufflesAway]

o/
I'm maybe at the same stage. Psychiatrists bombard my body with pills, and whilst I feel different (maybe more calm) it sort of... makes me realise more how fucked i am... i really like asmr videos, and i think lonely people like them too. but look at the view count. thousands upon thousands. i'm just another miserable person in an ocean of like minded people. the more i try to interact with others the more it seems that this is just life, and most people don't like it. i feel trapped and broken, but i think that's normal, and theres nothing you can do about it. everyone's acting. there's no reward. pretend to be happy. happiest person alive? doesn't matter. you don't win anything.

 

[scarletrat]

I can relate that it sometimes turns into actual physical pain only because I have OCD too and a few years ago I had a bunch of open wounds on my hands from all the hand washing and my use of cleaning products. It's crazy how our mental health can manifest physically although I have a feeling you are referring to other physical ailments. I wish you peace.

i mean yea my brain makes me feel like im being ripped apart or skinned or something just cus of this stupid illness

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I'm maybe at the same stage. Psychiatrists bombard my body with pills, and whilst I feel different (maybe more calm) it sort of... makes me realise more how fucked i am... i really like asmr videos, and i think lonely people like them too. but look at the view count. thousands upon thousands. i'm just another miserable person in an ocean of like minded people. the more i try to interact with others the more it seems that this is just life, and most people don't like it. i feel trapped and broken, but i think that's normal, and theres nothing you can do about it. everyone's acting. there's no reward. pretend to be happy. happiest person alive? doesn't matter. you don't win anything

i get that. none of us really matter and neither does life. tho sometimes feeling numb is a lot better than feeling too much pain at once.