Venting im so tired physically and mentally i cant keep this up much longer

[snowman626]

Im so tired. So sick of hearing "if you're depressed dont keep it inside talk about it" as if that'll solve jack shit. I have no energy to talk. I cannot waste energy explaining shit to people who have no way of helping when i need what little energy i have to pull myself out of bed and do mundane stuff.

Even a simple interaction like listening to someone explain to me how their day was takes so much life force out of me. I just need rest. I need to rest ....

How do some people manage to act so happy and laugh at everything? Or even those who are really depressed and are just pretending...how?? When people talk and interact there is so much life force and enthusiasm. When i talk i can barely keep my eyelids open.

 

[Lostnotfound]

I cannot waste energy explaining shit to people who have no way of helping

What help do you need?

 

[faust]

Hello, @snowman626
You are not forced to talk to anybody if you are not feeling up to.
I find it very hard to talk when I am tired to the core. When you explain somebody that now you don't feel good enough to talk, they usually understand.
Remember, it is up to you to say no to conversations. And ye, I will repeat, you are not obliged to.

 

[Beautiful_Disgrace]

I hear this so many times. I'm tired of hearing it too. No one can ever say anything but "I wish I could help you." Well that doesn't make me feel any better.

Just don't talk about it, unless you want to. I found this place to vent about my depression, because I don't have to fucking defend myself to anyone here about how difficult and painful it is to live.

Rest. Save your energy to get through the day. Don't worry about anyone but yourself.

 

[BlackPoppet]

Hello, @snowman626
You are not forced to talk to anybody if you are not feeling up to.
I find it very hard to talk when I am tired to the core. When you explain somebody that now you don't feel good enough to talk, they usually understand.
Remember, it is up to you to say no to conversations. And ye, I will repeat, you are not obliged to.

Agreed! You are not obliged to have conversations with any one if you are not up to it. I've tried being all social even when feeling deathly tired and depressed, but I can't. When I see someone in the street and they want to stop and chat, now I just say sorry I'm ill today. I'll chat next time sorry. If they still try and engage me in conversation I just turn on my heel and walk away. I used to have long boring conversations with people even if I was really ill, tired and depressed. These people could see I was ill and they would still drone on about whatever it was that they would drone on about, all the while looking at my pale,wan, exhausted face in a strange way because they probably assumed I was high. They would take ages to explain stuff or take ages thinking of the next sentence, I would start getting really agitated....I'd be thinking " hurry up so I can go home. Nightmare!
I pretend I don't see these people in the street now. It's not that I don't like them, I'm just too tired to talk to them. I don't have it in me.

 

[Lostnotfound]

I agree you dont have to talk to anyone if you dont want to and that includes me. Thankyou for answering me.

If you have been shot down that many times then its no wonder you feel so tired and helpless. Self-worth taken a battering! Everyone has something to offer sometimes it just takes other people to help them see it. I know today you are tired and not wanting to talk, but I have some skill level in business having started 3 of my own and run them successfully so if and when you feel like talking I would be happy to go over things with you and see if I can help. Feel free to PM me if and when you find the will to look at it again.

 

[Epsilon0]

How do some people manage to act so happy and laugh at everything? Or even those who are really depressed and are just pretending...how??


I don't know how, I just do it. Most days I am successful.

But some days, like today, the pain and sadness are so intense, so raw, it doesn't matter how hard I try to control myself and appear outwardly calm... nothing works... my forehead wears a constant frown from all the rage and despair, and my eyes have a watery filter from the tears I try to supress.

So tired, so broken and just so deathly sad.
I haven't wanted to ctb this badly in a long time.

 

[BlackPoppet]

How do some people manage to act so happy and laugh at everything? Or even those who are really depressed and are just pretending...how??


I don't know how, I just do it. Most days I am successful.

But some days, like today, the pain and sadness are so intense, so raw, it doesn't matter how hard I try to control myself and appear outwardly calm... nothing works... my forehead wears a constant frown from all the rage and despair, and my eyes have a watery filter from the tears I try to supress.

So tired, so broken and just so deathly sad.
I haven't wanted to ctb this badly in a long time.

 

[Ghost2211]

you said you were interested in finding a partner. What have you tried to do to find one?